My Disgrace

The pain in my eyes, hidden behind a fractured smile /Crumbling away after years of misuse / Now beyond repair, my soul shattered, by neglect and abuse /I slip under the cover of silence, into a world of self-inflicted violence /Breaking down, under the weight of my mistakes, I look for a way, to unseal my fate / And this won’t go away, no I can’t escape / Trapped by the choices that I’ve made /Searching for answers that can’t be found / And now I can’t hear your voice, over the sound of my world crashing down / No I can’t see your face, through the black clouds of my disgrace /Strap me to this bed I’ve made, and bury me beneath your screams/Release is all I seek, and I’ll find it deep within this pain / These bitter words of sorrow, stain my tongue with a crimson rage / The words, cut like a knife, feeding the hunger inside / An appetite, satisfied by the ultimate sacrifice / Don’t try to save me, I’m already damned / Cursed by this blood on my hands / I savor the taste, of my disgrace, covered in silence and suffering / I’ve become a machine, no emotions remain / This smile now just a routine, a mask for all my pain /Now listen to the words, that spill out of my eyes / The picture they paint: devoid of light / The story they tell: I’m losing this fight / And now, I can’t hear your voice, over the sound of my world crashing down / No I can’t see your face, through the black clouds of my disgrace / So, strap me to this bed I’ve made, and bury me beneath your screams / I hope to see you again, in my dreams