Where am i?

What happen to me. Where have i gone to. Should i scream it out that i need help. Or shake and coward in fear till i kill myself. Must i hide my problems from everyone. Everyone who doesnt understand. Shaking in fear. Do i need to take a break? Do i need to go somewhere fat away from everyone here. Find somewhere to breath and be happy from my fucking life. What i think of myself: I’m a Screw up. Worthless. Loser Useless. Pathetic. Scum. Why i think these things. Why am i like this. I cant live like this i just can’t. Lets just hope… that one of these days… i would either kill myself or find help.