We were going to go to pass out fliers for our show at First Friday
but no
you had to make a joke about your ex and bring up how much talent she does NOT have.
Then why does she have more modeling pictures than me?
Oh right, because she’s a whore. You’re sensitive about the modeling subject. I don’t know if that’s your way of telling me I’m not pretty enough or because you don’t trust me to be my own manager. NOTHING will happen if YOU’re my manager.
And then you call me the one thing I hate the most:
Immature.
I HATE THAT WORD TO NO END. I’M MORE MATURE THEN MOST PEOPLE MY AGE.
If you want mature go date a fucking girl your age.
You know I’m going to be upset for the rest of the night, don’t try taking me out to dinner… I’m not hungry, when I’m depressed I want to starve myself.
I can’t even kill myself, it’s like on video games– without a reset button. When you try to beat the boss the best you can and die faster, or you screw up and decided you want to restart the fight by dying– and he won’t even hit you as much as he just was because you’re trying to lose now.
You know I can’t think straight when I’m upset– so don’t fucking take everything I say seriously. You KNOW not to.
You call me immature… You’re 26, eat colorful cereal for breakfast, take your anger out on people, and are still rebellious. Yeah, I’M the immature one.
I want to die…
I want to DIE…
I WANT TO DIE!
I have every night for the past 7 years– and I’m only 17. My mother’s depression isn’t even as serious as mine! And she’s been through hell and back too! SHE doesn’t even understand how suicidal people feel as well as I do and she’s now 40!
I never felt guilt until I met you, it was one thing my therapist was proud of… Not feeling guilty even with severe depression– but now…
EVERYTHING is my fault. And it’s because you blame everything on me…
Stop fucking rambling like I care about what you’re talking about. Right now? I just want to puke.
…Maybe I should starve myself–I’ll weigh less… And die slowly, and it’ll take long enough for me to get things in order.
I mean, I love food, but I believe it’s the most peaceful way…
So you don’t have to ***** about me asking you to make me food again.
Yeah, I’ll do that…
I’ll starve myself.
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i strave myself. I only eat on meal a day and i eat less than that. Even if i crave something we dont have it do i dont have to worry about gaining more and more weight.Im trying to lose all of this i hate myself for even looking like this and i will never be happy with the weight i am.
People say I’m the perfect size but I don’t think I am, I plan on doing it more to you know– die.
ahhh i see people say im skinny. But i know they are lying i know im fat and always will be no matter how much i loss weight i still always will be fat
My town does first Friday too…where do you live if you don’t mind me asking.
My town does first Friday too…where do you live if you don’t mind me asking.
My comments won’t post:( awaiting moderation. So lame. I was gonna ask where you live cause my town does first Friday too
My stomach grumbles at night and I can’t sleep. I will lay on bed and think that maybe I’m one step closer to Death.
I’m chubby, not that fat, but not that thin. Just caught in the middle. Some tell me I’m okay, others tell me I need to lose weight. I think I will never be skinny enough. But I can’t stop eating. I love food.
Food is comforting, sadly…
Southern Nevada, I won’t say what town as I don’t want oneone I know possibly guessing who I am here… It’s happened before.
Manyone I know* ahh.. Typing on a phone.
If you’re able to model, then you’re not fat. I’m skinny and tend to not eat. I constantly get told to eat, but in reality I’m just not hungry. When I am, I just ignore it for a bit and the hunger pains disappear. I know I’m not fat, but skinny. I’m not trying to lose weight. I just can’t seem to care to eat. I’m tired of life…and eating tends to be a hassle.
Also, if the man you’re dating is 26, then even he is still immature. Males don’t really mature mentally until they hit their 30’s or so. So if you’re called immature, don’t believe it. Next time he says something like that, just say ‘calling the kettle black’. It basically means look who’s talking.