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Cousin Carson

by Violet Blake

Of all the people on my dad’s side of the family I missed talking to the the most, it was my older cousin Carson.

Carson and I used to be close as kids, when my father was part of my life. We are only two years apart and to him and I it’s always felt like nothing. He’s the closest thing I ever had to a brother, more so then my own brother even. That’s why when he decided to come down to my father’s house I didn’t think much about it, all I could wonder about was what he was going to be like now that he was nineteen, an actual adult. So much had changed since we were just toddlers playing in the blow up pool at his grandmothers house, I was nervous about all the things that had been said about me to my other family, the people who possibly didn’t know what I had gone through, why my father had left. I wasn’t sure, Dad hadn’t mentioned to me anything about my aunt or my cousins, or even my own great grandmother for that matter. Granted she had died earlier this year it was the fact that he didn’t even talk about his family that put me slightly on edge.

“Violet!!”

Carson pulled into the driveway in his sleek mini-van and slammed the door shut, holding out his broad arms and wearing a huge smile on his face.

I couldn’t contain the enthusiasm that suddenly shot through my body. I was so happy that he didn’t have this look of disgust or contempt on his face for me that I actually ran down the steps like a giddy school girl and into my cousins arms, letting him swing me around the yard like I was still a little girl.

“I don’t remember you being this pretty”, he ruffled the top of my hair.

“I don’t remember you being this tall!” I had to look up at my cousin, him being a good five inches taller then me or more. Still, despite the fact that he grown about 3 feet since I’d last seen him he was still the goofy kid I knew to be my older cousin, and that more then anything made me feel like maybe this was a good idea, maybe I could let my family back into my life.

“Violet! I’ll be in the house, come in when your ready for supper”, my Dad grumbled, his hands stuck in his jeans.

“I wonder what his problem is”, I thought aloud.

“Violet, maybe we should sit out here on the porch and talk, I think there’s some stuff I need to tell you”.

The smile faded from my face, what had happened to the close family I knew after all these years? Why had my father given Carson the death glare, and why did Carson now look sick to his stomach?

I sat down on the swing my dad had put out on the front porch when I was just a baby. I remembered my mother rocking me in it to sleep, my dad bouncing me on his knee to get me to laugh, all the things that make a baby’s life worth while had happened on this swing, and here I was almost grown up, and I was feeling like it was suddenly the last place I wanted to be.

Carson sighed, looking over at me with a meek smile, “Violet Esmerelda Blake, little Vi, I can’t believe I’m really seeing you”, Carson’s eyes began to brim over with tears and I felt my breath catch in my throat.

“Carson, what is wrong?” I placed my hand over my cousin’s.

“I’m afraid If I tell you, then you won’t love me anymore”.

I felt the strong urge to raise my voice but i fought to keep it steady so my rude father wouldn’t come back out to ask what was going on.

“What? Carson, you know that nothing you tell me will ever make me not love you, no matter what it is”.

“And you know the same goes for you! so why didn’t you ever contact me for all these years Violet, what was going on with you that I can’t know about?”

I froze, i couldn’t tell him. Not yet anyways. I was finally starting to see that the family I thought was perfect when I was younger was faulty, if Carson was this upset about something then it could only involve the family, no one else was worth all this trouble.

“Just tell me what’s bugging you, we have plenty of time to talk about me later”.

Carson stopped crying, my strong older cousin with the palest skin on the planet. I remember I used to tease him about being a vampire when we were maybe nine and seven, only two years before my mother had to take me away from my father, from everyone here.

I squeezed my hand in his, “I’m gay, Violet”.

My jaw almost dropped, that’s what this was all about? That what he was afraid was going to make me not love him? It occurred to me that my cousin didn’t know anything about me anymore, that he must’ve thought I would be just like my father, judgmental and close minded, but he’s wrong. I’m not my father, I have never been him, never will be.

I almost began to laugh, it seemed to clear to me. Carson had always been different, he didn’t like all the little boy toys, tonka trucks or army men, he was much more interested in the way things worked, the way people worked. He shied away from everyone, and even at nine I should have seen the way my eleven year old cousin was becoming more and more secluded, like me. If I would’ve known about this then (believe me i was old enough to know exactly what being gay means) maybe I would’ve told him about the rape, he would’ve bee able to handle the situation better, told his mom, my grandma, I don’t know. I just wish that I could’ve been there for my cousin, and I feel guilty I didn’t let him be there for me.

“Carson look at me, I love you more then you know, always have, and I want you to be happy no matter what that means, you could be attracted to goats for all I care and I would still love you just the same”.

It was Carson’s turn to laugh now, “I can’t say I’m into goats but I could go for a man with a goatee”, he teased.

I wanted to find a pillow to hit him with for making such a lame joke, “Look, I know my dad doesn’t approve of it, i can tell, but you need to know that I am definitely okay with it, I wouldn’t have you any other way, and if you parents really love you, and the rest of our family does, then they will get over it”.

Carson nodded, “You’re right, I should have known you’d be the only accepting one, you always were the type of person who didn’t care who someone was, like that time when you were in second grade and I heard about you refusing to sit with anyone else besides Alan Hite just because you wanted him to have more friends”.

I giggled, I can’t believe he remembered that! I didn’t even know Alan Hite anymore, he had just been some kid in the second grade who liked to wear tap shoes to school every day, and I used to tap dance when I was a little girl. I guess that’s why I was nice to him.

“You still know Alan Hite?” I asked, curious as to why he brought him up all of sudden.

Carson fidgeted, “you could say that, he’s kind of my boyfriend”.

I KNEW IT!

I wrapped my cousin back up in a hug, “Well you tell Alan I want too see him take good care of my favorite cousin, oh, and I can still tap dance circles around him”.

Carson nodded, “Thank you Violet, for being okay with this”.

I smiled, so maybe I’m not ready to talk about my personal problems with all the people I used to know, and maybe it’s going to take a lot of time before I’m ready to bring it up, but I know that with Carson’s help, Jimmy’s help, Cameron’s help, Mrs. Hudson’s help and maybe even my dad’s help I can do it, I can let people back in.

So, whatever you are, whoever you are, whatever your problems are, just know that there are people out there who want to help you if you let them, the world isn’t just black or white, so live in color 🙂

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Senium Cassus 7/15/2011 - 1:12 am

This made me smile. It’s very sweet. Thanks for sharing it.

Violet Blake 7/15/2011 - 2:37 pm

ur very welcome, glad i could make someone smile.

Melodrama 8/28/2011 - 12:34 pm

Hey Violet. I google’d “I’m looking for an answer” out of boredom , then found your article. And read all your blog. It’s been sad but inspirational to see you go through all this. And still willing to tell it in here.I know your life doesn’t go exactly like you’re planned and all , but still , I think you’re getting stronger each day. Thank you sincerely for sharing all this stuff. And I’m happy to see the last posts are much more optimistic.But I noticed you rarely post stuff anymore. Does this mean you’re all okay ? Or given up ? Either way , please let us know , and write more often.Hope to hear from you soon. Till then , take care.

Dawg 5/29/2012 - 12:52 pm

Jeeze nbarules12 … you’d think you’d have learned from the last dust-up about being a racist … now you’re moving on to gay-bashing?

“being gay” is no more a choice than being black or Jewish.

disgust dawg

truthbetold 5/29/2012 - 1:15 pm

lol .. nbarules = troll

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 1:28 pm

Here we go again -_-

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 1:34 pm

If you believe god made everyone in his image he wouldn’t hate gays or blacks so you are completely against god with those posts

Dawg 5/29/2012 - 1:39 pm

Nah … I ain’t getting into it with this gaybashing racist bigot cult follower troll – there’s no point

knowing dawg

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 1:41 pm

That’s good, I have nothing better to do so if he replies why not

crimson regret 5/29/2012 - 1:51 pm

Nba what is your defination of ‘gay’ i am intrested

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 1:54 pm

@Dawg You forgot Hell spamming, annoying, out of place, uneducated, controlled.

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 3:20 pm

So what is being a complete idiot?^

crimson regret 5/29/2012 - 4:18 pm

Youdidnt answer my question nba. What is your defination of being gay? You mentioned it was a curse? If it is a curse as you mentioned then it is not a choice. Come on i am intrested

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 4:18 pm

Oh so thinking is being an idiot? Wow I sure wish I was intelligent enough to be a gaybashing racist moron who believes whatever he is told, poor me.

crimson regret 5/29/2012 - 6:32 pm

You are still yet to answer my question nba. Define ‘gay’

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:35 pm

Guess that means your mother is gay…

Are you aware of your stupidity?

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:37 pm

If you were a woman, would you be attracted to men or other women?

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:40 pm

I’m going to go out on a limb and say that, as a man, you find women kissing women attractive. Would that be correct?

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:41 pm

Then I would be given the impression that you, in fact, are gay.

What man in his right mind isn’t into girl-on-girl action? I mean, come on.

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:42 pm

Ironic how the least gay thing a guy could be interested in is gay women. Just saying.

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:45 pm

LOL! god… now it makes sense. Another closed minded religious nut.

Dawg 5/29/2012 - 6:48 pm

LOL … just the way you were indoctrinated to respond … when you grow up you will either come to find two hot chicks kissing very arousing or you will, in fact, be considered MOST gay by all … except for your fellow cult members.

threesome dawg

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:49 pm

Don’t fool yourself into thinking you’ve never “sinned”, or that your so-called god will forgive you.

You’re going to rot in the ground just like the rest of us. You’ll be eaten by maggots, and worms, and rats. And that’s the end of it.

Don’t preach to me about heaven and hell. We are already living in hell. Look around. When you see murder, rape, kidnapping, and starvation all over the world, tell me, where the hell is your god? Why does it not help people?

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 6:53 pm

God is all knowing, all powerful, and loves all of his children, right?
So why would God intentionally create somebody who is flawed and bound for hell?
If God has everybodys best interests at heart and knows what’s going to happen before it happens, then he must’ve created gay people too.
You can’t say that people have a choice if God already knows what’s going to happen to them in the future.

Dawg 5/29/2012 - 6:55 pm

Everyone who is brainwashed “thinks” they have free will … but you just keep parroting the cultist company line, punkin 😉

I actually feel a little sorry for you … the deeper they believe, the more despondent they become when reality smucks them in the face like a rotten mullet

real dawg

Zeddex 5/29/2012 - 6:55 pm

A different approach than my own, but nicely said.

crimson regret 5/29/2012 - 7:07 pm

I had a feeling that that was going to be your answer nba, that you only include male having sex with another male as gay.
And by the way being gay is not a choice, its not something you can just decide.. Its part of your genetic code

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 9:12 pm

God is omniscient. He knows everything, his knowledge is limitless.
When he creates somebody he knows in advance if they will be gay, black, a mass murderer, or an internet troll.
Yet he still creates them anyways, even if he knows that they’re bound for hell. This is the God that you have chosen to worship.

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 9:15 pm

Also he yells “it was Satan” every time anything bad happens

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 9:22 pm

Actually its based off of location. The heat and sun in those areas are crazy so dark skin protects them.

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 9:26 pm

How can you have a “choice” when God already knows what you’re going to do before you’ve done it?
Wouldn’t it make more sense for an all knowing, all powerful God to just NOT create Hitler’s, Charlie Manson’s, tsunami’s, earthquakes, fires, floods, etc.? If Jesus loves his children so much then why does he feel the need to torture them? Why doesn’t he just create well behaved pets that he can program to serve him who don’t suffer from the notion of freewill?
You can’t have freewill if the outcome has already been determined.

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 9:34 pm

seems legit

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 9:40 pm

Just out of curiosity, did you happen to hear that conversation between God and Hitler personally?

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 9:43 pm

Why don’t I remember that conversation?

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 9:48 pm

Why would god even make a big deal about people who didn’t find him in life I mean really punishment is not called for

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 9:55 pm

^Not sure but I have to say I do appreciate that you are at least being fairly nice

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 9:58 pm

Do you believe that Santa Claus is real? There are books written about him. How else can we explain the gifts under the tree on Christmass morning?
Just because nobody has ever seen him doesn’t mean that he doesn’t exist. Just because he flies around the world in one night and stops at all of the good little boys and girls houses doesn’t mean that he’s impossible. He’s a miracle worker. He is able to defy the laws of gravity and physics with his magic reindeer. He reminds me of God. They both have so much in common.

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 10:00 pm

Sorry for taking so long. The devil made me go smoke a cigarette.

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:01 pm

Santa and God have alot in common but the main difference is that one of them is a sadist

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:02 pm

I prefer the Devil’s shrub

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 10:02 pm

Yeah, you’re right Wolf. God has waaay more kills to his credit than God does.

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 10:03 pm

er Santa I meant

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 10:05 pm

I think there’s as much evidence to support the existence of Santa as there is to prove that God is real.

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:07 pm

Wow nice god created physics so he can defy him, that would mean proving god will be impossible because he can just defy all physics. Or he could always come out and show himself, its like he purposely hides himself and then punishes those who don’t find him

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:10 pm

Christians constantly tell me that those who deny god go to hell

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:11 pm

I know you’re Mormon

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:16 pm

Can’t wait for that

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 10:18 pm

Hmmm. So a religion that was started by a polygamist reading from magic stones is more believable than Santa and his magic reindeer.

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:19 pm

Personally If I had a god it would be the Black Emperor Scorpion

Lou C4 5/29/2012 - 10:21 pm

I thought Bring ’em Young and Joe Smith were. Brb

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:23 pm

Just all Black Emperor Scorpions

WillTickin 5/29/2012 - 10:39 pm

I’m sorry, but I’m just annoyed( to say lightly ) that this trolling and feeding is going on here on this post. Bring it somewhere else?

Violet: Thank you for the post, very sweet indeed. I’m glad you and your cousin are still able to be the best of friends and he sees that you’re there for him and the type of good person you are. Hope all goes well for both of you…

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 10:41 pm

I agree its a great post and seriously I can’t imagine why the hell you care about what is added to it

the Guardian 5/29/2012 - 11:11 pm

Violet, your writing is beautiful!
You should be published!
I hope you get a chance to study, a voice as rich as yours has a lot to teach the world.

One day, maybe not in my lifetime, but in lives of my children, ignorance will bend to tolerance, tolerance will bend to acceptance, and acceptance will bend to peace.

Dawg 5/29/2012 - 11:52 pm

Hmm … I must have a defective bible … because mine has stories of floods, fire and brimstone, pestilence … and even the smiting of the first born in egypt … you moron!

biblical dawg

Wolfenstein666 5/29/2012 - 11:52 pm

Sheesh Dawg everyone know the Grim Reaper does that and by the way he is totally real

Dawg 5/29/2012 - 11:55 pm

Oh for fucks sake … yet another super hero … with all that company god ain’t lookin much better than the wonder twins 😀

to the hall of justice dawg

Lou C4 5/30/2012 - 12:01 am

Google “atrocities in the Bible” nbarules. Hopefully your honors English comprehension skills will help you understand the God of the Bible a little bit better.

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:02 am

So wait he allows natural disasters to happen but doesn’t cause them? So who is the other god? 🙂

Dawg 5/30/2012 - 12:03 am

you cannot be this much of an idiot … … but I guess god allows it ::facepalm::

i’m so glad i don’t believe in all that hocus pocus … since y’all just make it up as you go

your god, you deal with his tantrums however you choose … enjoy :/

reality dawg

lostchild445 5/30/2012 - 12:04 am

If he allows them to happen then he’s a sadistic bastard. What would we do to government officials if they just let half the country die? Well if we didn’t assassinate their ass, we’d sure ad hell run them out of office. If god allows for death and suffering, well I don’t think he is anything worth worshiping. I agree. At least santa brings toys. He only asks for cookies and milk in return, not eternal devotion and the occasional first born son.

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:06 am

So if there is only one god how can natural disasters, an act of god, happen if god doesn’t cause them?

Dawg 5/30/2012 - 12:08 am

@lostchild … oh you beautiful intellectual! Well done! … but unfortunately ‘god” does “allow” it all to happen without so much as lifting a finger ON TOP of the death he deals … he’s all multifaceted multitasking … if you believe such folly

gawd dawg

lostchild445 5/30/2012 - 12:10 am

Oh just like evolution. You know, that whole 90 some ought percent positively proven idea that we all evolved from bacteria left over from the creation of the universe, and that we didn’t just pop into existence out of no where in our current form.

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:11 am

I always ask if god is perfect and all powerful why does he make mistakes and the typical answer is “God works in mysterious ways”

lostchild445 5/30/2012 - 12:13 am

Everyone knows that’s just a theory tho. What’s real is the flying spaghetti monster in the sky. All hail the flying spaghetti monster. he shall smite thee in thine face with his giant meat balls.

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:14 am

That teabagger

Lou C4 5/30/2012 - 12:22 am

Science flies men to the moon, religion flies men into buildings.
Some atheist said that.

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:24 am

Hey god makes no mistakes I can list some now

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:27 am

1) Sending Jesus here to die painfully to prevent humanity from going to hell(A place he made). Why not just change your mind and do the same without torturing your son? 2) Not “allowing” a natural disaster to kill Hitler (And other horrible people) 3) Actually loving your creations instead of constantly fucking with them and killing their family as a “test”.

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:28 am

I already put 3

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:31 am

4 Hiding himself and not showing himself openly for example why not come down and show himself, or how about going into hospitals and healing all the sick while showing it was him, why leave wonder of his existence with little hints like a really old book

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 12:32 am

How could I possibly take an ancient book’s accounts of magic as being absolute truth?

Dawg 5/30/2012 - 12:46 am

Yeah … well you think after the first few THOUSAND murders and invaded countries … good old all knowing god could have bought a clue … if he existed … but since he does not exist … poof … holocaust … and if he does exist (which he does not) then that’s an awful big “oops”

what have you done for me LATELY dawg

Jisatsumisui 5/30/2012 - 1:05 am

Wow…Dawg’s on a roll tonight!

molly woppit 5/30/2012 - 1:46 am

GO DAWG!!!!!

crimson regret 5/30/2012 - 5:02 am

Wish i had a big padlock for this thread. nba go take your “teachings” else where. Wheres the mods when you need them..

Wolfenstein666 5/30/2012 - 9:53 am

He reopened a year old post to say being gay is wrong.

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 1:27 pm

isn’t Hitler a child of God ?

and why didn’t God do anything to stop the holocaust, slavery, the armenian genocide (the list goes on) AT THEIR BEGINNING ?

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 1:36 pm

is your God an all-loving, compassionate, forgiving God ?
what qualities does he have ?

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 1:39 pm

Not this again. I’m so glad people on this site are open minded.

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 1:53 pm

^(insert intruding comment here)

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 1:57 pm

“your right nobody is going to hell because there is no hell. so what do you have to say to that”

I say I’m glad you have opened your eyes

themaskoftom 5/31/2012 - 2:00 pm

God is at best capricious and absent – and in my view, non existent. Nobody is going to hell or heaven. Seriously, what rational person believes in such things as heaven and hell? Who could possibly look at starving babies, abused children, deadly natural disasters, a constant parade of totally random death and horror and pain, and think “this is the construct of a loving God, and he will reward or punish us based on how we react” WTF, is God running a Japanese game show here?
And yes i also know there are puppies and flowers and rainbows and dolphins. I don’t mean the whole worlds a a shithole. But a rational look at the world disproves the existence of a controlling, loving creator. You simply have to disbelieve the world and accept bizarre, conflicting parables to embrace religion. And that my freinds, is a drug. Denial of reality to feel better is a drug. Religion is a drug. A false sense of contentment based on altered perception of reality.

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:13 pm

“Submitted on 2012/05/26 at 12:46 am

the three worst sins 1.murder 2.breaking the law of chastity 3. denying god and suicide is basically murdering yourself so if you commit suicide your going to heck which is pain for all eternity”

I believe in your sincerity 😉

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:15 pm

Lol like I said I’m going to super ultra mega advanced hell

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:18 pm

I’m sorry but don’t try to dumb down something that is completely idiotic

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:24 pm

how can you prove the existence of the telestial kingdom ?
(I’m talking about irrefutable proof, not some extracts from a religious book/text/movie)

excuse my primitive, rational mind for asking

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:26 pm

@nba oh so now you’re being a dick? Hey are your friends as dumb as you?

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:27 pm

awww I have friends too, nba ..
it’s just I do not cling to them .. enjoy your divine-marked life

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:32 pm

I can just feel the love of god radiating through you

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:35 pm

u mad bro?

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:36 pm

lmfao .. what a sore loser
*can’t stop laughing*

just remember jesus is reading your words

dunkelheit 5/31/2012 - 2:36 pm

You’re 12 as it’s written in your nickname, right? No need to argue with you, because only a twelve-year-old child would say such offensive things.
Probably you’re ignored, or enjoying puberty.
With no reason, why would you be lurking around a suicide site..

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:37 pm

I was wondering the same why the hell are you even here

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 2:38 pm

Don’t say things like that on this site.

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:41 pm

I find it funny that you are mad

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:42 pm

Fucking around is my guess

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:42 pm

he’s been brainwashed to think he’s better than suicidal people

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 2:42 pm

Ok say what you want but you will have no friends here. Leave this post, leave him to talk to himself.

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:43 pm

Or cheap entertainment

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 2:44 pm

We don’t do that here, we don’t tell people to kill themselves.

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:46 pm

Helping people get over suicide by telling them to kill themselves….wow helpful

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:47 pm

You little fuck

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:48 pm

still, you appear to be one confused individual & an attention whore

no offense

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:48 pm

Truth just in case you actually care don’t listen to this dumb fuck

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:50 pm

if you weren’t neglected in real life, people would notice it 😉

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 2:51 pm

A child saying childish things.

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:52 pm

@wolfenstein he’s just a gay man in denial at the end of the day

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 2:52 pm

STOP IT NOW. In all my time I’ve never seen anything like it here.

alafolie 5/31/2012 - 2:53 pm

nbarules12 – I came on this site today to try to get some help, all you are doing is commanding the attention of everyone with your immature comments. How dare you come onto a site where people who have serious problems and are looking for a judgment free place to speak their mind and tell them that killing themselves would be “hilarious”. How can you live with yourself acting this way. Its disgusting and despicable. This is a place people come to escape people like you. You heinous individual, you have no right to be here if this is how you treat people.

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:55 pm

^ ala listen he is an annoying troll and a piece of shit. He actually enjoys reactions especially emotionally charged one.

Duke of Marmalade 5/31/2012 - 2:55 pm

Ignore him. Leave this post.

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:56 pm

See look at this stupid fuck make sure you don’t pay any attention to ANYthing he says

truthbetold 5/31/2012 - 2:57 pm

@duke: you’re right .. let’s leave him with his own company
he has a right hand after all .. lmfao

Wolfenstein666 5/31/2012 - 2:58 pm

agreed

themaskoftom 5/31/2012 - 3:23 pm

How does a racist scumbag get the screen name nba rules?? National Bastard Association?? Well, we all know anybody posting that crap is a sick fuck who hates himself, but projects it on us.

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