If you are suicial, I know your feelings, and second i really know your feelings. And i know that you are not guilty, or the problem is not you, please think that was you know that?
It is difficult to let you understand because i don’t use english as my primarily language, i would, I was 16 years old and i was seriously throught suicide everytime. and i don’t think it right now.
If you search my username, you will find lots of posts. I really had these feelings and i know how to kill that.
I know it is hard to kill that thought. Every problem can be solved, if it really cannot it can be solved via other methods (e.g. you may change your place, may find a different job), even if you loss someone, i know you can’t forget, but you can live it for him/her.
I were very sad, still i am… About seven or fifth month ago i knew her and She was talked with me (i were exiting from a place), and i was very but very sad and she did that randomly, we talked 3 minute. (She was work and student here (she helps people at information))… After night i thought her and i loved her, i think she is 19 or 20 years old … after two month, i went to information and i see her and there wasn’t someone except her. We just talked i said i just come here to see you then after all She requested my phone number (i wasn’t memorized my phone) and i said i can give you in 1 hours, then i get my number in 3 minute then come information, i see her with girlfriend, and i listened they talked about me…
We just talked every two week. after? nothing happened. Last night she was called me and i was in deep sleep. I can’t answered, in morning i call her but telephone wasn’t reachable, i redial again after 5 hour the was pressed “No” button. I still think there was someone in she’s side and she can’t answered me. I love her but its still good even she doesn’t loves me…
Feel free to contact me, i can talk, i can understand, i can do everything for you. My name is not Kemal, but my mail address is kemal@gazeteobjektif.com (you can add it to MSN), I really currently doesn’t use other msn addresses. I will give my real name if contact me.
also you can contact me for every but every computer/server/technical problems, i know everything but everything about computers and i promise that i will help you.
Thank you for reading my post.