I havent been diagnosed with anything because nobody knows what is going on with me. There is only one person who knows about my cutting, and he thinks I only cut because I want to kill myself.
I have been dreaming of death alot lately, and even had a dream where I was screaming out to my mum because I couldnt breath. I saw my coffin in another dream also.
The guy that knows about my cutting always says that he is always there for me no matter what but when I do need him he is never around or is busy.
I stopped cutting for two weeks, because I felt proud of myself saying to my mate that I hadnt been cutting when he asked if I had.
I just cut about half an hour ago, and I wanted to go deeper, even though there was so much blood already.
I have never spoke of this stuff before. Anyone else out there in the same situation?
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Telling someone can be the scariest thing in the world, but, as much as it is ultimately your job to solve your problems (and I promise they can be solved!), it’s very likely that you will need a little help, as most everybody does, and telling somebody can be the first step to getting that help. Therapy is helping me tremendously, and I know that might be a little bit of a far step for you right now if you have only told one person, but when you are ready you might want to try it. 🙂
If you want to talk further let me know. Take care, be safe ♥♥