really???!!!!

I have been in and out of pain for more than half my life. At 13 my father died and thats when my roller coaster started. After that i found out i was just a form that could walk. Ive been on and off the ledge so many times i lost count. what i can tell you is that your not alone. i didnt have any one to turn to so now that i made and i learned how to deal with it. Im reaching out to others to help them. if your just reading to learn how to help a friend DO NOT TRY TO HELP!!! JUST LISTEN!!! thats all i wanted and thats all they want. dont fix what aint broke.. were just confused and cant think those things through like you can. it takes time but we get there. just need space. so just listen dont judge or fix or try to understand. you cant. just be there for us.
So i guess what im trying to say is it gets better and easier to feel things out. if you do need someone to talk to just look outside. even if it means going to starbucks and talking to some stranger. that can do wanders for anyone. with nothing but love to all. janscutter