to everyone facing problems and the feeling to die,.

i know how it feels, that very feeling. when you’ve had enough, not just of the problems your facing with your life, but just with living. waking up everyday, thinking of death and how things would be after, where you attempt to end YOUR world and have a nice peaceful sleep for the rest of eternity. sounds nice, but you always have had enough of these thoughts. if you cut you’ve had enough of the scares and blood, if you do drugs you’ve had enough of looking for your fix, and looking for the next high. i also know how it feels to fail. fail at ending everything your SO tiered of. and then when they’ve found you lying their just injured and they “fix you up” and “med you down” then your either being put on suicide watch, OR you just sit their and realize how bad you feel now, i felt like a total failure. i failed at life, and then failed at death too? i know how it feels, but i guess i picked myself up somehow, my boyfriend was basicly my motivation. but now i wanna help people. i want people to know, how bad they push someone and how much it could hurt, or just how to explain what people like me, would go through. i don’t want people to learn or think their learning from those stupid high school movies on t.v and how everything ends up OK in the end. but it’s never always gunna end OK. i’m attempting to write a book, about a REAL troubled, person. REAL people with problems. i wanna know if you guys could help me out, maybe tell me your stories, i won’t use you name if you don’t want it to be, but i want people to really know, this is REAL and these are REAL people. not just made up thoughts on what people “think” people with problems go through.