I remember sitting in Health class two years ago – year eight – and getting taught about depression and suicide. My thoughts at that time were something along the lines of “take it all in, you never know when you might need to save a friend,” and I kept the sheets that we were given. I found them the other day. I never ever thought that I would have to look for the signs in myself.
I just think it’s weird how the future is actually so unpredictable. I never thought this would happen to me. I honestly thought I would always be that girl that nothing happened to, things only happened to the people around her. I suppose everyone kind of feels invincible at some point. I thought that everything would work out for me, that I would somehow find a way all the time.
Well, it did happen to me, bad things do happen and I’m not invincible.
I’m just upset that I had to find this out on my own. It seems like I was the only one listening in that Health lesson.
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Oh yeah I just had that class for summer school, it was weird being in that class learning about all my symptoms. I didn’t realize before and now it’s just weird.
Seems like you were befriending yourself….life is always offering up reality checks and bringing us back down to earth so that we’re real with who and what we really are. You seem like a great person from your post. Cheers!