The help from people is very pain emotionally. I dont get why they would even want to try. Its pointless and a waste of time. It pisses me off at times when people do try to help. Although i was looking for it before, but know i just dont want it. Its like a scare emotion inflicted on your skin. I just want to die so i dont have to worry about life anymore. That i dont need people helping me out anymore. Only one thing is holding me back from offinf myself. I dont know what he sees in me anymore. I dont want to waste his time. I dont want him to deal with me. I love him and he loves me. Would it be better if he finds someone better than me? Someone who doesnt want to off theirselves. Someone who actually wants to live their life insted of planning their funeral. I dont know how much longer i can go on like this. Everything that surrounds my surrounds. The people the attenion the helping? I found that hard to believe at all. I find to hard to beileve anything anymore.
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If you both love each other, then it’s not better for him to find someone else, and it’s impossible. No one will be better than you in his eyes because he loves you. That’s an incredibly powerful thing.
i know i know :c i talk to him about it yesterday too v- v