I am 17 years old and a lesbian. I have to deal with religious assholes saying I’ll burn in hell and adults who assume I’m some kind of pervert. I don’t understand how a drug addict who beats his wife (but goes to church) can go to heaven (“cuz the poor dear can’t control himself”) but I get to rot in hell for falling in love with another girl.
At home I’m in the closet, if I came out to my family my dad would probably kill me(and I don’t mean figuratively). My dad is extremely homophobic, and has that “God hates fags” attitude. He has warned me of what would happen if I turned out to be “one of those little faggots”, and I’m damn sure he isn’t bluffing. He used to be extremely physically, sexually, and verbally abusive, but by some minor blessing it’s just verbal abuse now. My mom doesn’t have a backbone and sides with my dad a lot, so if he threw me out into the streets she probably wouldn’t do anything to stop it…seriously, fuck my life.
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I think I might be one too, or bi. I can’t come out either, I’m seventeen also. I’m just going to buy the ticket and catch the bus.
I’ll be 17 soon. I think I’m bi. Idk. I’m attracted to girls. I just can’t fall in love with one. My dad is super religious too.
@ Septemberrain:
As shitty as life is, I don’t want to die. I’m just horribly depressed…I want to wait until at least my sophomore year in college to see if things getter. I want to tough out living with my parents, especially since it’s just one more year. Because there’s always a chance things will get better once I move out
@Broken
Not to sound patronising or anything, but if you can’t see yourself in a relationship or having a future with a woman, you are most likely straight or just bi-curious. Being bi or gay is more than just a sexual attraction.
Here’s a little truth for you…if someone projects fear towards you, it is about the person projecting…it is a subconscious attempt to control you and validate their morals or values so they can feel safe and comfortable with their beliefs… You are valued, loved and will not burn in hell…love and everything that goes along with love…ie…joy, peace, contentment….that’s what’s real…when you know what’s real no one can touch or get into your head….Good luck, take care
I wouldn’t fall in love, I’d simply love…falling in love is a Hollywood concept and falling to me implies getting hurt and losing control or sense of you…the most important person to love is you. 😉
@softsoul – Yessss! You’re smart! ^That’s what I think too. ‘The most important person to love is you’.