If I’ve ever hurt you, I hope you can forgive me and understand I never intended to hurt anyone. I have only treated people the way they would treat me, so if I did you wrong, Im sorry. If you can’t forgive me, I understand, I know I’m just a bad person, I wish I was better person.
Your born alone, and you die alone. I get that now.
Never show your true pain, I understand now that showing your hurt will lose you the people who matter most.
You think that people, or the ones that love you most will understand you but they don’t.
I’ve learnt that everyone is for themselves, I wish I was born this way.
When I go, most of you will never understand, say I went against my religion. But in all fact, this has nothing to do with religion, or being selfish. But for once, to do with me. I want that one moment of peace, towards the light, and if I burn in Hell then so be it. I never intend to hurt anyone, but I always do somehow, so this is my final act, after this no one can ever be angry or shout at me again. No one will feel hurt anymore.
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I can relate to literally every single word you wrote.
And ultimately, I realised suicide would hurt more people than if I had the chance to stay and give back. And now I want to be a nurse in a mental hospital and eventually, when I retire, a science teacher. I have goals and, as scary as it can be sometimes, a future, where I can see myself as happy, or as happy as I will ever be. I still haven’t completely learned to forgive myself, but I am trying. The point is, there are better ways to bring good things to the world–killing yourself is certainly not one of them. As far as hurting everybody, first of all, you can’t please everybody. Also, how many people are you helping? Who enjoys having you in their lives? If you can’t answer those questions, it won’t hurt to ask a few people. Ask them, even, why it is that they value your presence in their lives, what they find special about you. I have asked some people these questions and the answers have amazed and uplifted me, and helped me get better. Good luck, be safe, and take care!!