So I am new here to this site, and am spiralling down hill. I have tried to take my own life a number of times before, but went on pills and saw doctors and all sorts. Things never really seemed to be any better. recently things are just getting worse and worse, like my mind is in over drive as to what to do and where to go, should I shouldn’t I.
I’m not going to make out that is it, I am going to do it, because I am not at that point, but I am getting closer and closer to a breaking point, I try to fight the urges but, simply, even the strongest bridge will one day fall apart.
It’s been interesting to read some of the posts here, it is like some people are for and some not to sure, some hang around (read around) to try and stop people, some to encourage people to, interesting the differences. That’s is simply a side note observation.
What I have liked about this place so far is obv – so many others feel like I do – depressed it not how I feel, hopeless and desperate – way past depressed
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So what are the pros and cons in your life?
They get mixed up as one looks to work out what is a pro and what is a con …. for example, I know that my parents care, I know it, that should be a pro right? When your dad is great, not really a dad so to speak, but a friend, and your mum is sick, mentally and physically, you kind of look at the pro as worthless. things are all to easy to become to become a con … I have a dog, a place of my own, friends, family, these are all good, but I despise so much of it, these good things in my life are a constant pain, hate, anger, a life sucking experience, but they are also the only pro’s I have. Other than my dog I guess. My dog is probably the only one good thing I really have.
the reality is, I am an unhappy person, I do not enjoy life, I do not enjoy living, I do not feel like life is worth anything, it is trail after trail, every day I awake wishing it was my last, hating the fact a new day has come.
I hope that makes some kind of sense.
So what does your dog give you that the other things don’t?
I guess he isnt a hassle.he doesnt hate blame or guilt me.