Love sucks. We all know that. I’m in this house right now that every single room remind me of my ex. Even if I go outside it remind me of my ex.
And i’m ill. ahh hate it.
and I was supposed to have the best week ever. But no. It was worse than others. Why is this depression thing fuck everything up? Can’t it just go away. All this pain, and I have no idea why it is there, it just is.
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If it helps even a little, you are not alone in what you are going thru. I just got done with another one of my many crying spells over my ex who left me a couple of months ago. Even after almost cleaning my house out of everything I STILL fall apart when I go from room to room. I go outside and it’s the same. Hell I drive down the road most the time with tears streaming down my face.
I do wish I could tell you it would get better, but the fact that you and I are both on a suicide website would make it pure bullshit. You know, just like me, that if there is no hope of the ex coming back, then it’s up to us as individuals to decide whether we want to live without them or not? Ask yourself if your ex is worth your life or would you get more satisfaction out of improving yourself, finding you another love, and then rubbing the exes nose in it?
For me it’s a no brainer. I have tried everything I can think of to get past this hurt, getting rid of the reminders of him, by keeping myself busy, trying to make some new friends, but NOTHING is working. I just cannot get past how easy it was for him to leave me and I find myself wondering if he ever loved me at all? If I ever found out for sure that he didn’t that would be it for me so I haven’t tried making contact with him.
If you want to reply back, that’s fine. Hang in there until you decide what’s best for you. Take Care.