As a former crack addict I can say this about suicide. I was suicidal from a very early age of 5 or 6 years old.
No one knew of my suicidal feelings until 1987, and even after that up till now if I don’t want a person to know, I can come off as the most confident person you ever met.
I tried suicide a few times while I was using drugs. The drugs completely crush and distort rational thought. Though contemplating suicide seems rational to the problem at hand.
I haven’t used cocaine since January 18th 2004. I have been sober for a little over 1 yr.
I see your pain and confusion about all this. Don’t try to figure it out, you’ll just torture yourself.
Join a suicide Survivors support group. This isn’t one, this is a site that us with suicidal tendencies can come and write about the pain we have. We try to lend some positive support to those which are living and suffering with these thoughts.
Your story may have an affect on just one person and they don’t kill themselves, thank you for sharing it.
We all know that we leave people behind and they hurt, yet for the most part we don’t kill ourselves to inflict pain on others, it’s to escape the living hell that we are in.
I am sorry for the loss you are experiencing, and time doesn’t always heal all wounds. I wish you peace so that you may in time be able to move forward.
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As a former crack addict I can say this about suicide. I was suicidal from a very early age of 5 or 6 years old.
No one knew of my suicidal feelings until 1987, and even after that up till now if I don’t want a person to know, I can come off as the most confident person you ever met.
I tried suicide a few times while I was using drugs. The drugs completely crush and distort rational thought. Though contemplating suicide seems rational to the problem at hand.
I haven’t used cocaine since January 18th 2004. I have been sober for a little over 1 yr.
I see your pain and confusion about all this. Don’t try to figure it out, you’ll just torture yourself.
Join a suicide Survivors support group. This isn’t one, this is a site that us with suicidal tendencies can come and write about the pain we have. We try to lend some positive support to those which are living and suffering with these thoughts.
Your story may have an affect on just one person and they don’t kill themselves, thank you for sharing it.
We all know that we leave people behind and they hurt, yet for the most part we don’t kill ourselves to inflict pain on others, it’s to escape the living hell that we are in.
I am sorry for the loss you are experiencing, and time doesn’t always heal all wounds. I wish you peace so that you may in time be able to move forward.