How do you cope?
when your…
…friend who you thought was your best friend left you?
…mother decides not to believe in you and wants to disown you?
…brother and sister decides to not stand up for you and stay with your mother instead, even though you truly believe you are right?
…only friends are the good friends, but no close friends?
…love life is in shit-hole?
…university academic is being affected by your drastic (depression) behavior?
…thoughts of suicide is re-surfacing, stronger than ever?
I am sleeping alone now in a hotel. My mother just left me to sleep in our new apartment. My brother is staying with my mother in his apartment for the night. I am exhausted and tired from crying my eyes out.
I do not want to sleep because I feel as if tomorrow is only going to get worse. New years day is the day after.
I want to leave the world. I do not know how to. Or maybe I am afraid. I have had suicidal thoughts since I was 7 years old but I never took it as seriously as within these past few years. Now all these stress is making me reconsider suicide as an option.
Please do not take it as a joke. Can anyone out there offer me some kind of help? Please.
I wish I have an angel or a friend or stranger or anyone… holding my hand right now and telling me sincerely it is alright and they will always be there to hear me and take time to take me seriously.
I really want to believe. again. How do you cope if you were in my shoes?
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Ok – I give some of this a shot – but I’m pretty tired so I’m not going to be ‘in-depth and detailed” so please don’t take it as me not caring.
best friend? – either wasn’t or will realize he/she made a mistake and ask forgiveness for being an ass
Mother – women – go figure – but she is your mom and you can’t change who she is – you have to work with it … if you get the green Play doh – you make a frog, not a butterfly
Siblings – seem to have figured out what color “play doh” they got and what to “make” with it – plus they are natural competitors – it seems you lost this round – just because you are right doesn’t mean everyone believes it is right – “you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink”
Friends are friends – why the rating system?
Sex – everyone has dry spells – if it’s that bad buy a hooker – in the meantime, “handle it yourself” – you save money not having to pay for dinner anyway 😉
school – it’s your JOB – leave home at home and focus – in a real work place (and in this economy) you WILL get fired for under performance.
sleep – go to sleep – take an excedrinPM or 3 if you have to – but tomorrow WILL be worse if you don’t sleep
I hope this helps you gain a little focus and to prioritize – Key for you right know is School and family – if you need to apologize – apologize (even if you are right) it’s not worth the bad blood to be right and lose your family
I really apologize if this seems a little “cold – ut I am very tired and in HUGE pain … and I gotta pee … I know, TMI, right?
I’m sorry. That is terrible, what you are going through.
This is going to sound really trite, but the best way to cope, for now, I think is give yourself a break from thinking about it. You will drive yourself mad, thinking about who was right or wrong or what you would do differently if, or trying to understand people’s (illogical) actions. Just give yourself a little break from thinking about it, you are only torturing yourself. I hope you can find a nice party or something to help you just stop thinking for just one night. Maybe your friends aren’t perfect, but they are only human, and it sounds like you have a bit of steam to blow off.
Im really sorry about your life, i can relate to parts of it, if u want to talk feel free to txt me at jmtoverbeck @gmail.com(the site is wierd if u tyoe it all together)
You’re being asked to go inward and understand YOU are the constant in your life and relatives/friends/material things, fall away or can but you continue so look to yourself for support, hold your own hand, love and appreciate yourself unconditionally…look out for #1….YOU. Use your mind in service of you. Your world is guiding you in a different direction and when you receive the nudge as a loving thing you realize it’s time for self growth for you. You perceive that your world is turning on you…not happening at all. If that’s how you feel, turn towards your world and express what it is you want and how you want to feel. You have to make firm decisions about who you are and be fearless in the process. It’s a process to help you grow…so trust it! It’s all good!