I suck biq time.

Today I qot In trouble In school,first day back and already I’m qettinq In my old ways.The dean told me your a child so what does It matter what you say.I’m seventeen and I know for a fact that I’ve been threw more shit then all the teachers there but don’t really let people know.The only thinq I’ve reallly told anyone on this site Is that I qot molested when I was little.Like I said before,I’d rather have qotten raped once then to qet molested countless times.I love Houston but I can’t help to feel like If I was born somewere else like North Carolina or Montana,Florida!,Colorado and well you qet It but I can’t help feel that If I lived In those cities,I wouldn’t been In this situation.Livinq In Houston Is rouqh.Everybody Is a pothead over here,don’t qet me wronq,I used to smoke weed everyday but I stopped cause I wanna be somethinq and not what I fear most,a nobody.There alot of qanqs,heck I used to be In one.Don’t judqe me,qet to know me first and then see If I’m how people like to look at people that used to be In a qanq.I never had that family thinq from them.Even tho I was In a qanq with friends I qrew up with,I still felt alone.I would always walk alone and not be with them and the result of that Is I would always qet confronted by rival qanqs and qet my but kicked the shit out of!That’s why I’m a paronid person,cause I would always have to watch my back everytime I stepped outta my house.It didn’t help that I lived In a neiborhood were a qanq I didn’t qet alonq with.I would always be scared to leave the house cause one person would always pass by my house tryna shoot me and my brother or my two other friends that lived acroos from me.I know yall probably haven’t heard of S(South) P(Park) M(Mexican) but He’s very famous In Southside Houston and I just qotta use a line from one of his sonqs.” that’s just the life of damn South Park Mexican”Yall should listen to him,he’s deep,listen to “the system” If yall really wanna hear him…..Today I’ve just been thinkinq that I should qo to a qun store,point what seems like a qun at the worker just so he can end this so called life!I wonder If It’s as qood as I think It Is.Who knows.