I’ve always managed my depression very well. But recently over the last 4 months I have just seemed to sink lower and lower. Now I know it probably hasn’t helped I’ve bottled up my feelings in the past.
But anyway the main problem is I’ve lost my smile, confidence and my ability to interact socially.
See about ten years ago I was a very recluse person and if I did go out I was always a loner. Then I met my best mate and he brought the best out of me.
Now ten years later he now lives in a different town and I’ve started to notice most of the people I socialize with nowadays only want me when they need something mainly money.
So I’ve started to go out in a different town and stay in hotels, but the problem I have is I can’t make new friends as I seem to have become anti-social, maybe its trust, maybe its my lack of confidence since I’ve lost my smile. I tell myself to chin up everyday but all this is me venting.
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I understand you, i struggle to make friends and always the loner if i go out, in fact i made an effort and went to my christmas work dinner and guess what? No one barely talked with me and i made so much effort to try to interact but just got left out and felf stupid all night. And i thought some of them were my friends but when others are around i guess they think im boring or something as they all ignore me. never again will i put myself thru that. I would love to be your friend
Thank you, I’m glad my rant didnt so sound as stupid as I first thought, the strange this is over the last two weeks I’ve been out with people, but while out with them I’ve never felt so alone, take tonight for an
Instance, I was out with a couple of girls, who I always listen to there problems, now one of there bfs doesn’t like me because she always crys to me when he screws up. But still I care. I know I will survive, I know I will always be successful.. well with money but with people never