I always have such grand ideas for things to do during my lunch hour but I usually end up lazily browsing the national post website and wallowing in some self pity.
I would rather not have been born; I think all the time how I hate the various sensations that go along with occupying a living body. It’s all so draining, trying to find some level of contentment… I dunno.
I feel like, some time ago, I experienced heaven, but now I’m here. I’ve completely forgotten the experience of perfect happiness except for the lingering feeling that I’ve been better. I long for non-existence.
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Then why not take your grand ideas and try turn an idea into reality. You find no contemptment with being on the interntet. Its a waste of time just a time pass. Get off the internet and do something real that is worthwhile. Yes it may be hard to find happiness, but happiness wont find you. You have to look for it.
Take Care
i’m sorry that you’re feeling so lame.
but please tell us of your grand lunch time ideas.
but yeah, i miss feeling happiness, i don’t understand or know what was doing that for me. skateboarding?certain friends? school (is the best possibility)
i really think that it was my ignorance that made me so happy.now that i know more, y how fucked up the world is, i can’t stay so blissfully ignorant.
peace