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Self Pity

The Sound – I Can’t Escape Myself/Hour of Need

by Taf Taf 10/21/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just want to break out
Shake off this skin
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I can’t escape myself
–
All my problems
Loom larger than life
I can’t swallow
Another slice
Seems like my shadow
Mocks every stride
Can I learn to live with
What’s trapped inside?
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I can’t escape myself
–
So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just wanna break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
I can’t escape […]

10/21/2018 1 comment

I don’t know

by mm9 2/17/2014

written by mm9

On some days I wished I never starting self-harming, but on other days I wished I never stopped

2/17/2014 0 comment

urgh

by tia 11/14/2013

written by tia

okay um, i need a fucking knife, i give up on this dehydration thing. it is taking so long and i keep accidently drinking with my meds and then i go to purge the water and urgh im just tired of life. i want to stab my boyfriend but i cant cause he is grounded because he went clubbing with a girl who is hard core crushing on him, she is bombing his ask, and why cant he see how much he is hurting me. i wish i could just tell him that i hadnt selfharmed in almost 2 months before we started dating, and […]

11/14/2013 23 comments

Allow me to vent and don’t mind me

by BurstingBilrost 9/26/2013

written by BurstingBilrost

Fuck it.

Fuck myself, fuck everything.

I’m in a perpetual emotional tilt. Dazed and confused. Head spinning.

Legs shaking. Feel like smashing stuff.

I would be a calm guy, I would. IÂ am thatÂ guy. But have no choice anymore. I’m losing it.

There’s no choice. It all bullshit. Its in me and from the past. Its fatum.

Hey, I believed in peace and justice and all that. But seriously, if I had power, before abolishing this type of financial system, etc, I would FUCKING WHIP everybody first!

Just fucking burn, Just fucking burn.

All nonsense. I have nothing, nothing. Worthy men have died younger than me, so what the fuck? Why do I fucking […]

9/26/2013 1 comment

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by Jazzmoses 8/29/2013

written by Jazzmoses

Every day, I see beautiful people around me. People with straight, pearly white teeth. People with skin as soft as satin and blemish free. They have everything in their hands, and they know it. Even I have to admit that beautiful people have the upper hand in life, because, hell, who doesn’t like looking at a pretty face?

My skin is disgusting compared to theirs. It’s spotted with scars. Trust me, scabies and a skin picking problem do not go well together. Now the scabies are gone, but the scars and scabs have been there for two years.

It’s almost as if God has decided that I […]

8/29/2013 9 comments

I hate it when people think they know

by Death's_Friend 7/21/2013

written by Death's_Friend

To whom ever says they know me

If I didnâ€™t want to live

Here is what Iâ€™d give

Iâ€™d give the breathe that fills my lungs

The food that will taste sour to my tongue

I would give the wayward mind I have

The undecided and unknown path

Iâ€™d give up everything

If I didnâ€™t want to live

If I didnâ€™t like humanity

Understand without unnecessary pity

We are overly selfish and dramatic

Obnoxiously annoying and spastic

We dwell to long on things I want forgotten

Too many people assume how Iâ€™ve gotten

If I didnâ€™t like humanity

Perhaps I didnâ€™t want to live

If I didnâ€™t like myself

Here is the basic line up on the shelf

I am pudgy to others […]

7/21/2013 0 comment

I can’t do this anymore

by dangleheart 6/28/2013

written by dangleheart

I just can’t do this anymore. My “life” is nothing but pain after pain. Please give me physical pain. Anything but this burtal self pity/ emotional bull crap i’m feeling right now! I hate this. I hate myself for feeling this!

I have come to a point where i just don’t know what’s left for me anymore. I’ve experienced things, that humans want to. I’ve loved Â both mentally and physically and i’ve been brought up in one of the world’s greatest and most beautiful cities but … Why do i still feel like this? There’s only one conclusion and that is; i’m fucking selfish as hell!

As […]

6/28/2013 5 comments

I’d rather not say.

by /\/\YT|-|ical 5/30/2013

written by /\/\YT|-|ical

Uh, where to begin?

Well, my name is #^$&#, (I won’t actually put my name on the internet), and I have been depressed for quite some time now. First, a disclaimer, this story isn’t one of triumph or victory. I like to write when I’m lonely, so I write a lot. Putting it into the public’s eyes is just me doing something a bit more productive.

Although I am no psychiatrist, I can probably safely say I suffer from Social Anxiety Disorder. It wouldn’t be too hard to tell that I do; I avoid most all social contact. I rarely see friends outside of school and when […]

5/30/2013 1 comment

Unrequited Love Version 2.0

by krescent 4/26/2013

written by krescent

My story began about 6 months back. I had quit my job at HP and was preparing for some competitive exams. One day I noticed a text from my old friend. She used to be so nice to me in college and I did her a lot of favors. She was a noob with computers so I helped her out a lot in those days. Â This was back when we were in college and well, that was about 2 years ago. Â All this time, I had only thought of her as a friend but seeing her text after all those days. created a sort of […]

4/26/2013 7 comments

Am I Alone Like This

by Anka 4/8/2013

written by Anka

Hello. This is my first post here. IÂ don’t really know why I’m writing this. I guess I just want to spill it out. May be it will help me to cope with my feelings.

I feel so angry at myself for complainingÂ about myÂ life. I mean look at the world around us. People are dying from hunger, from war, from diseases, from cancer….and here I am. Safe and sound…well…for now…

I’m almost 18. Feel like 12 years old to be honest. How did I even get that old. So fast.

I dont have anything to hold on to. Relationship with my family is…how can i put it…not the one […]

4/8/2013 6 comments

My hate for you

by Roaming_Soul 2/12/2013

written by Roaming_Soul

My hate for you runs deep

but it wasn’t always this way

You made me smile, laugh and forget about the crap that goes on around me,

but now you are merely a contributor to my pain.

I’ve learned to accept you for you and I’ve always looked beyond your appearance

but you would never give a second thought about how I feel.

This is my moment to be selfish, my moment to drown in my self pity

because all this time I have tried to make things better for you. My friend.

I hate that you use me as the butt of your jokes to gain laughs from people who will never […]

2/12/2013 1 comment

one reason why.

by b1urr 1/13/2013

written by b1urr

(might be triggering)

i’d say it began in 6th grade; they made me weak by pointing out my flaws. i had thought,Â why would anybody want me if i look like this? i began giving away my food because i didn’t want to be fat, i never smiled because i didn’t like my teeth, i didn’t talk much because i didn’t like what i often said. they persuaded me to hate myself.

so when he would pay attention to me, in 7th grade, i felt happy. too happy. he was the first to see my scars. he told me he cared. but he only wanted one thing..

it wasn’t […]

1/13/2013 1 comment

I Deserve Better Finally Kicks In!

by plain jane 12/9/2012

written by plain jane

Strangest thing…. today when I was brushing my teeth it just sunk in. This thought…. I said it aloud then. I DESERVE BETTER! Then I said it again and again. I think I finally believe it. The thing with me is that, sometimes my feel good revelations are short lived. Until someone knocks my pack of cards by a light flick. I can’t say this too will stick. But get it!

Yesterday I googled a camp song I once heard… No body loves me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go eat worms…. and so on… It made me laugh, because I was indulging in self-pity. […]

12/9/2012 4 comments

I have finally decided on a D-date.

by christina-- 10/14/2012

written by christina--

I figured: If I dont choose one now, I will never. It felt like a huge relieve, finally deciding when everything will end.

To be honest, I will grab every opportunity with 6 arms if one arises. I dont really want to die. I wish I could just be someone else, and have a different life. It is not fair I have gotten so much on my plate. And its pathetic to wallow in self-pity like that, but I cant give any fucks about that. Fact is, I am pathetic. I dont deserve to live.

Theres about a 50% chance I wont go through with it I […]

10/14/2012 0 comment

I want to do it.

by shindy7 9/24/2012

written by shindy7

I hate my life so much. I am thirty-eight years old and I have never felt the warm touch of love before in my life. I literally have no friends and have not had a stricken of luck for 10 years. I have tried to take medicine, but it never works, it just makes me more angry. The thought of doing it satisfies me, but when it comes down to it I am pathetic and cannot do it. I haveÂ schizotypal personality disorder and I also see and hear things. Not only am I depressed, but I enjoy the sight of blood and I love physical […]

9/24/2012 20 comments

Worse and worse.

by Just another sad, sad girl. 9/11/2012

written by Just another sad, sad girl.

I went to the doctors. They said I most likely have a stomach ulcer from too much smoking and alcohol and pills.
That’s never good. If It bursts well.. I’ll have to get an operation and I could die.
[…]

9/11/2012 1 comment

Not today..after all

by Russianboy91 9/3/2012

written by Russianboy91

Well that is it. I skipped class today after just another shitty day without talking or knowing noone in this huge class of over 100 students and already by now everyone has study groups. After that moment something glitched in my brain and I simply did what I always do. Escape. So I took the first bus home. I was so pissed off at myself that I turned to the closest mall and told myself that I would not be a ***** any longer and go through with taking my life today..so I bought a six pack of ice cold Heinekens and a bottle of […]

9/3/2012 0 comment

A bit about my past…for those who want to know :)

by Unique 3/20/2012

written by Unique

Hello children, I just wanted to shed some light on one of the worst times of my life, I was not always as well adjusted and happy as i am now, i was onceÂ in the gutter. Its difficult to talk about because its a time would like to forget, but those who do not remember there mistakes are doomed to repeat them.

It wasÂ 7 years ago, the first time attended college,Â After my GF died, i went off the rails completely, If im perfectly honest it was mostly just a blur of alcohol and self pity, hatred for a god i didnt believe in, But mostly i […]

3/20/2012 2 comments

Sharing my story

by Shirra 3/2/2012

written by Shirra

All my life I’ve always put up a front. Its become my defense mechanism. I can’t bare the real me. Everyone knows me as the happy, hyper girl who’s kind to everyone, and always has the right advice for any situation. I don’t know exactly when i started cutting, but it started as a ploy to catch my parents attention; show them how much i was really suffering. I was adopted, my birth mom was a drug addict and she drank and did drugs while pregnant with both me and my sister. My birth dad abused me. I have 2 siblings I’ve never met. My […]

3/2/2012 6 comments

How Do I Make Them Understand?

by LegitApplePie 2/20/2012

written by LegitApplePie

My family can’t seem to grasp the fact that I have a problem. They all think that I am making myself sad and basically faking everything. For what? I have no idea. Maybe they think I’m trying to get attention or to be rebellious. I am, however, 100% clinically depressed and in no way “faking” this or making myself sad. If I liked being sad, why would I be constantly thinking about suicide? I would try to stay here as long as possible to wallow in my own self pity, butÂ I want to leave as soon as possible. I went to see a therapist, and […]

2/20/2012 5 comments

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