i attempted offing myself about a 2 weeks ago….ive just been to damn ashamed to say anything….what is this….attempt 12…..13maybe?? i think ive gotten to the point where im just used to the failure. The pills only made me spaz thru the night. i kinda get a kick out of how cruel God is. it surprises me tht i can still have a relationship with God, no matter how one sided it is…..i begg and pray, and he just looks on. i swear my pain and eternal torment is his entertainment! Atleast Death holds me in the night. tho its not time for me to go yet, he promises to keep me in his grasps forever more in love<3
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You know, I used to Curse at God as he watched me suffer. I could not understand why he had failed to keep my heart safe. I cursed at him, yelled at him told him I hated him but I couldn’t understand what I understand now, That pain is temporary and some things are just not meant to be. don’t do it. don’t take your life away. If you are gonna take your life why nit just live it? Do everything you couldn’t do before.
I’m so sorry to hear your situation. I was in a horrible situation too, and I used to beg to God all nights, and I really felt that He wasn’t hear me. I didn’t understand Why He always had been with me and in that horrible moment I couldn’t feel his company. But one day I realised that He was telling me that I have to fight for myself. I was a person who really hate myself, and that had to stop. The thing wasn’t He wasn’t with me, the thing was that I had to move. God doesn’t hate you, and never give you something you can’t past trought. Jesus suffers too, and felt that God wasn’t with him.
Please, never give up! Never stop trying to live! Sometimes it hurts like hell, but you Must be strong
Hey luna sorrow 13 times?makes us twins of some kind..im not a christian but i understand suffering.what is it that makes you feel so bad?