My name is Daniel aka Xeeno. I do have an past with “Suicide” and it’s painful to live through. I tried many times to jump off an bright, I tried many times to cut my self, I tried many times to shoot myself, but for some odd reason something in my life through me off. Something wouldn’t let me jump, something wouldn’t let me cut myself, something wouldn’t let me shoot myself. But for some reason now I feel that I shouldn’t live life anymore, I should let life pass by me like the wind, I should let life go, I mean I have no job, I am an graduate of high school, I do have an girlfriend but shes far away now, my parents are leaving, my sisters are already gone. I have only one friend here, and it feels I’m about to lose him. I am so stressed, so many headaches, so many light heads. I just want to drop dead and never wake up. I am staying with my friend and his mom and I am trying my best to help out, but by thursday I have to be out of there house and go on. My girlfriend don’t even trust me enough to come visit her or live with her. Why me, why other people, why does life have to be this complicated. Life is an disaster and life is starting to fall apart rapidly. If there is anybody in the world who can help me out and please take me in or help. Please do.
I am Daniel Dunlap, I am from Fort Wayne , Indiana
I live in Radcliff, Kentucky. I have no phone, I have nowhere to go. I am literally going to snap and ending my life.
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Hi Daniel,I’m Ella.I’m so sorry your going through this,reading this just made me want to cry because I can relate so much to what your saying. I’m 19 now,but highschool was really hard for me and my family and friends,at one point I was living in a camping trailer with no running water,it was always freezing cold because propane was so expensive and we couldn’t afford it.I was so desperate and we had no money,and at the time I thought there was no way out. I didn’t understand the point of my life at all. I also struggled with an eating disorder,and everything was a mess. my best friend struggled so much with cutting,and I helped another friend to not kill herself because she was so depressed.I love her dearly,she’s just like my sister,and I’m not exaggerating when i tell you,if she would have gone through with it,it would’ve ruined my life.but she reached out to me,and I’m so happy to tell you that she is a beautiful successful happy girl now,and she is so grateful that she didn’t end her life. i know it seems like there is no possibility that things could get better. I was there too. I thought about suicide many times,but always,like you,had something stopping me. the love of my family and friends.it’s still hard sometimes-but i’m in recovery from my eating disorder,and I’ve decided to fight for my life,and things have gotten better.I know it doesn’t make any sense sometimes-we wonder what the point of it all is. but i believe everyone is here for a reason. it’s horrible going through the things we’ve had to-i understand being afraid of being homeless,having nowhere to go. but if i had killed myself,then i wouldn’t be here to reach out to you right now and tell you-things can always get better. you have no idea what is going to happen in your life in the next ten minutes,let alone the next ten years. you are worth so much,don’t let anyone tell you otherwise,okay? you have people who love you-they would be devastated if you died,like I would’ve been if my friend had killed herself.please don’t give up hope. losing someone you love is one of the most painful things in the whole world-my mother died when i was a little girl,and i’ve lost a lot of people in my life,its the very kind of pain because it’s so final,i would do anything to have just 1 more minute with her,but I can’t.I’ll never see her face again.but my mother died of cancer,and would’ve done anything to live.your not dying,your alive! theres a reason for you to be here. i’m here if you need someone to talk to okay?please please don’t give up!there so many things you can do-you can help someone else cope with this pain too.there are so many people hurting right now. we have to stick together,okay? please don’t give up. your not alone,we’re all here for you. -Ella
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Hi Dan! i do want to help but you are in us and im in korea.. if i could help what should i do? how about finding a voluntary place or church to work and stay? actually i thought about quiting my life and thought if i a going to end this why dont i travel around to know new things in this world before i pass out..? pleas dont snap yourself for there are someone who want to help like me.