Sometimes you live, and your so busy that time just vanishes, tomorrow turns into next week, next week turns into next month, and next month turns into next year. Before you know it nothing gets done…
Well this past week has been interesting, they say the thrill is in taking part. I’m running for Student Union President, I am going laugh if I win though as I will not be here. However its the buzz of running a campaign, of talking to different people (I absolutely love talking to people…) that gets me. I’ve got tons of support from random people which is amazing, however the person acting as my campaign officer is pretty immature. Kinda wish I had someone else as she has the craziest mood swings ever and will go through stages of not talking to me for the smallest things. Bad when I’ve got limited time…
I’ve been spending time with my housemates, they are the reason I am not doing it here as I don’t want them to be the ones to find me. They are pretty shocked I am spending more time with them actually… If only they knew why.
I’ve made my peace with BJ… When you finally read this I hope you realise it was in motion a long time before you, and that if you ever do any of the things u know u shouldn’t (yes you know what I mean) I will come back and haunt the shit outta you!!! I know that you will make it great…
I’m rethinking my method too actually as I have just found a supply of drugs which may make it less painful and more certain. Who knows I’ve got time… lol.
Now its back to dissertation (ya I know its weird doing it, I am just curious as if they will award me my degree posthumously…).
33 days remaining.
3 comments
Hi countingdown,
I haven’t read your story before so I don’t know what your motivation is for killing yourself.
However, judging by what you’ve written in this post, it seems as though you have so much going for you.
I would love to have the ability to get a degree, or the confidence to speak to lots of people and run for Student Union President.
Can you, perhaps, add a “60 years” in front of the “33 days remaining”? Just think of all the people you could talk to in that extra time.
can you tell me why your picked your specific date. mine is march 7th-i’ve read alot and posted a few hoping it would make me feel better but it just brings things to reality more.
Well my laptop died last night, and I lost months of work (whoops), really should have made a backup or two 🙁
Mines the date I lost the only person in my world that mattered.