I’ve been writing tonight. Â I’ve never felt this alone. Â I know I write crazy amounts and it is probably annoying to see my username posted over and over. Â I just feel so incredibly inside out. Â I threw away the glass because I was frustrated it wasn’t sharper. Â now I can’t get to it and it is driving me crazy. Â i feel like there is a monster clawing at my insides. Â i watched a movie. Â completely disturbing. Â i had no idea beforehand. Â i just want to disappear. Â no one really cares, not enough to listen to me anyway, or to try and understand. Â maybe that’s not true, maybe it just feels like it. Â but i just wish someone would write back because it used to be when no one understood, at least you guys would write me. Â i can’t finish my work. Â i can’t do anything. Â i feel paralyzed by this.