I Think I Can’t Continue Anymore .. But I Have To For Him

So Much Stuff Can Go Through A Girl’s Mind .. It’s Funny How At My Age I Had To Go Through All This, It’s Not Even Fair. I Turned 16 On January 29th .. My First Birthday Without My Father, Still None Cared.. Plus I Didn’t Wanted None To Feel Pitty For Me. As I Said On My Other Post .. My Mom Got A New Boyfriend .. We Moved To His House 3 Week’s go. I Had To Leave All My Friend’s Again And The Best-Boy Friend In The Whole World. She Moved My World Up Side Down Back Again Just Like She Did When We Moved Here From Peru And Made Me Leave My Dad. I Got Into A New School Wich Have’s A DressCode .. And Other Stuff I Had To Care Of. I Made New Friend’s Yes. But Everything Isn’t The Same .. I Haven’t Even Told My Bestfriend I Moved Because I’m Scared He Mite Get Mad And Cry .. Because I Know Him And I Hate Seeing Boy’s Cry. Thankfully That Week That I Moved .. He Was In Argentina And He Would Stay 2 Week’s. Now Today Sunday He’s Coming Back. As We Go To Diffrerent High School’s He Mite Not Notice But When He Start’s Nooticing He Can’t Come To My House On Week Day’s It’s Going To Be A Huge Problem. Still I Did All This For Her .. And I’m Giving My Best But I Think She’s Going Way To Far. She Even Came To The Point That I Couldn’t Even Put A Picture Frame On My Wall Of My Dad Because She’s Scared Of What The Boyfriend Mite Say. Rediculous Much !? Now .. This Spring Fling Thing At My School It’s Comming .. So Today I Wen’t With Some Friend’s To The Mall To Search For A Dress .. My Mom Gave Me 15 Dollar’s So I Could Eat. Since She Doesn’t Even Give Me A Dollar Or Care’s For My School Clothe Because It Have’s A Dress Code. So I Wasted My Money On This Dress .. I Decided Not To Eat But To Buy The Dress. I Come Home All Happy And Run To Her Room .. She’s In Bed And I’m Like ” Mommy I Bought A Dress :} ” She Said : ” With What Money ” . Me : ” The One You Gave Me For My Food ” … Her ” Ok . ” I Left To Make Myself A Sandwich With Her Boyfriend .. And Then I Came Back To The Room Saying : ” Mommy Wan’t Me To Try It On So You Can See It ?! . Her : ” No I’m Mad At You … ” . Me : ” Why, What Did I Do ” .  Her : ” You Wasted The Money .. ” Me : ” But I Was Going To Waste It Anyway’s On Food .. ” Her : ” Yeah But You Could’ve Of Gave It Back To Me. ” . Me Almost Tearing Up Ran Up To My Facebook .. I Just Sat There And Started Thinking How Not Fair My Life Was. Was It So Difficult For Her Just To Tell Me : ” Shure Honey ?! ” Wasn’t It ? . After All I Do For Her. Then I See A Post On My Wall Saying ” Tomorrow’s Someone’s Special Day ” .. I Couldn’t Still Remember .. Then My Chat Pop’s Up .. It Was My Cousin Saying ” Hey, Do You Know Where’s Your Dad’s Grave !? ” My Heart Broke Inside So Fast .. As If It Was An Inside Bleeding, And My Breath Started Shortering .. I Coulndn’t Even Answer He Question Because I Don’t Even Know Where He Is .. Since My Mom Won’t Put My Paper’s .. I Can’t Get Out Of The Country, She’s Even Planning On Going To Australia On Summer Without Me. Not That It’s The First Time .. She’s Also Gone To New York, She Say’s She Have’s To Live Her Life. Now Tomorrow’s His Birthday.. Do Any Of You Know Where Can I Buy A Gift That You Could See From Here To Heaven ? Please Message Me If You Do. I Just Think I Can’t Continue .. I Need To Hear His Voice .. I Need To Smeell His Perfume Or To Touch His Jacket .. I Need To Feel His Warth Or The Sound Of His Car. I Just Wan’t Him Back. I Wan’t To Be Poor Or I Don’t Know .. ANything But With Him. I Need Him With Me .. Without Me I Can’t. I Just Can’t.