I see all the mistakes Ive made and I wish I could erase them from my mind. Im so ashamed of myself, and
people just wont let me forget and I keep committing the same dumb mistakes; I must be crazy; I have to kill myself—I dont see any other way to get away from this shame and misery.   And there’s more to com…..somebody help me please
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Hi Gwen… Sometimes it’s hard to change habits. There are things that I do that I long ago decided to stop. It’s easy to say you’ll stop doing something.. It’s harder to change the behavior. It can be done… It just takes some effort and work. Killing yourself isn’t the answer… Working on things… one at a time… step by step.. is probably the better answer. For me, I try to break things down into more manageable pieces. Don’t give up.
Hi Gwen,
Sorry to hear about your loneliness and despair.
I once read about this one guy who’s brothers were jealous of him, they sold him into slavery and he was stuck in Egypt for some time. Working as a slave, his bosses wife tried to sleep with him and when he made the choice that he would do no such thing since it would be wrong, (the right road), he was rewarded by being thrown in jail. Boy that had to suck!!! Do the right thing an be rewarded by ending up in jail. To make a long story short, this man was restored and he became the second in command, just below the Faro, running Egypt and in the end saving a lot of people and his own brothers (Gen 37-50).
If you have no hope, there is always hope. If you wonder about your worth, you are wonderfully made. How can I say such a thing, because it is true. You can check it out for yourself (Psalm 139:14).
Even with our so called modern science, we can’t replicate the function of the human hart. Yes, we are quick to point out that it is just a “pumpâ€, but the truth is, they have been trying to mimic this “pump†for the best part of the last 30 years, and up to date, all the man made pumps fail, because among other things, they simply cannot handle the stresses and strain. Show me one pump that has been pumping without much maintenance like your heart for the past 58 years. One amazing mechanical feat.
You state that you have no family, and the once you have probably don’t want to be with you any more, but God is a God of second chances. Just think about the robber that was crucified next to the Son of God (Luke 23:40-43). Even for this man, this murderer, Jesus gave a second chance.
If it is second chances you want, grab it, because it was given to you. The Son of God died to give it to you. You can’t change yourself, but there is someone who can change you, the one who made, who designed you, and who loves you.
There is always hope.