My dad will not talk to me. I told him I would be there at 3 o’clock. I got there at 5 o’clock. He was pissed at me and told me that not to worry. He was going to do everything. Well itryed talking to him and he blows me off. I give it time, but I can’t take it. I told my mother who was also at the game that I was sorry I messed up again. I also said I should be a actor cause I have to take all my far’s BS. And just hold it in.no matter how much he makes me feel like a piece of shit I have to not let anyone see that in the end I think I’m shit too. I have come to a condition after all this dreams don’t come true. They never will and the sooner you get that in your mind the better. No guy is going to save you. Your dad is not going to come home and say its ok I love you when he can stand to even look at you. And most of all imagination is just that. I have come to the result… I have to just let what I ones believed go and do what will get me through life. Love is not real. Life sucks for the most part and there will be something you will always regret.
this is me now….I think.
Nikiy
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Love is real, you know that. It sound like you drew the short straw here – your father has te mentality of a child, so it’s up to you to do te mature thing, and wait until he finishes sulking and gets over it. It’s not really fair on you, your just a kid and it’s not your job to be grown up but sometimes that’s just the way it is. Your father loves you but he’s just too immature to show it. Sorry thts just the way it is sometimes. You’re kind to humour him – you’ll be fine
Your inadequacies are your farthers failures.