Maybe not the people on here cause I dont lie on here, but i mean the people, at work, school, facebook, parties. I see alot of people post on here about the person that was born smart and the person thats super popular, the person that played varsity basketball, varsity volleyball, softball and ran track. The girl that teachers love and that always gets invited to parties. The girl that studied with the geeks, played games with the gamers, made the jocks and cheerleaders laugh, stood around with the emo kids, skated with the skaters and sang in a rockband. Im that girl. And the people i’m usually around are so easily fooled. So willing to except what they see. They know nothing of my home life. They dont know about my suicide attempts. They dont know about my cutting. They dont know that there really is no one that i can call friend…that i rarely had a boyfriend because guys were always intimidated by me cause i could play better sports than they could. No one knows that i hate shopping and never got a manicure or pedicure. These people will never know how many cuts ive drawn on myself..they’ll never know that i cry every night. They’ll never know…because they dont take the time to ask how my life is. They assume that everything is..fine..even great…Because everyone is just so easily fooled by that forced smile…
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At least you’re popular.
The world is full of people who are neither smart nor pretty, never get invited to parties, and also have similar problems to yours.
Yeahhh I know. I shouldnt complain right? I’m not pretty either though..just know so many people. No real friends though. How you GET popular int he first place is trying to please everybody ALL the time..trust me, you dont want that for yourself
Sorry. I’m sure that wasn’t helpful. Hope you find someone who’s interested in the real you.
Hi Alicia
They might be saying exactly the same thing. I don’t want anyone to ask how I am because most of the time it’s just polite and not a genuine feeling of concern. You should not expect other people to care about you unless you start caring about yourself. To some that’s easy but for us…?
I wish I could destroy another life without remorse
I wish I could use and manipulate people for gain
I wish that their misery was satisfying
That I didn’t care, I don’t care anymore.
I dont expect them to care..its just that people are so blind…they dont know that i get home and get on a suicide site -_- sometimes it makes me laugh, sometimes it makes me cry.
Sometimes I’m having a drink and people must think I’m texting some hot babe, little do they know I’m talking to strangers on Internet forums about suicide. It’s the same for everyone on here; we don’t publicise it. Plus they would just think I’m weirder that they already do which given my last stunt would go some way.
Haaaha Duke. That is pretty true. Yeahh but turning back time seems to not work so well..especially when building a time machine is taking forever.
Trust me, Duke. Im not pretty, i can assure you. If you saw me, you’d agree..but thank you. That made me smile
I dont want to be popular, I want to turn back time and make my problems go away.
I think your pretty.
I have seen you!
Ohh wowwwww. I totally forgot that one post…well that was just a lucky pic..either wayy thank youu Duke and Lyda..ya’ll have just made my day <3
I aqree with duke,your cute;)…..Hey duke so what do you think of the video for Lucy?
There’s no such thing as a lucky pic.
The camera neva lies
Eyes lie 😉
You have a beautiful way with words; regardless of their tragedy.
I have a beautiful way with words? Care to evaluate?
I just felt what you originally posted had a beautiful elegance about it.
They way you described how you seamlessly fit into all the different cliques, but yet didn;t rally fit into any of them was touching.
I liked the way it was written.
Oh wow..Thank you for understanding. <3
I definitely understand. I just couldn’t have stated is as beautifully as you did.
Awwwh <3 Grrr. I can never stay pissed off or sad or anything bad on this site for too long…because of people like yourself and Distant.Road and Duke of Marmalade and Lyda and others.
Well I just joined this evening and am still finding my way around, but I sincerely appreciate the sentiment.
I dont remember when i joined..maybe earlier this week..maybe last week. Sometimes events in life escape me. I’m sorry about whatever happened/is happening in your life that led you to find this site. The people here are very helpful most of the time, though. 🙂 So good luck
Thank you. It has been a comfort just reading the differnt posts here and feeling the commaraderie.
Yeahh theres a good portion of comaraderie here. It makes me feel better most days im on here. I do also like your choice of words by the way 🙂
Thanks, you’re sweet. Now if I could only type without typos. 😀
Awwh..i try. 🙂 But yeahh I always type with typos so dont worry about it haha.
Rain Alicia, you’re right, it’s sad how the world today is so willing to accept the fake and the fairytale that no-one bothers to look deeper. It’s so easy to lie, we do it automatically… You don’t have to lie on here, I’m glad you recognize that. I’ll listen to you
I dont think i’ve heard a more perfect sentence in a year, NeverPerfect. Thank you so much. I’ll listen to you as well…