I just want to end everything.

I’m at the point that I just don’t want anything to do with anybody I hate everyone I’m in a dark whole and can not get out there is no way of getting out there is no exit what’s so ever. I just don’t want to try no more iv done everything I can to try fix this but nothing works I cut until there is no where else to cut iv lost a lot of people throughout my life iv tried to commit suicide I was rushed to hospital 3 times they set me up with Mental Health I hate it I never want to go it does not help me what’s so ever if anything it brings all the memories back there is one memory that will never leave and its the night I was raped. I have nightmares, flash backs, I always think I see this person standing in my house at late hours of the night I can never sleep I cant eat I have never been so scared. Iv been bashed and thrown around like a drag doll because one of my ‘friends’ said that I said something about the person when I didn’t. Iv seen family members be bashed right infront of me iv seen my father bash the hell out of my sister and mum and his ex, there is alot more iv been through but thats a little of it I just DON’T WANT TO BE HERE NO MORE iv had enough everyone thinks im a strong girl really im not im weak im broken completely there is no fixing me at all.