Happiness could be just around the corner

I had my first psychiatrist appointment Wednesday. After three long years of suffering, I was finally diagnosed with depression,given anti depressents and told I need counseling. I cant express how much of a relief it is, even if my mom kept crying after it. Im still in pain from how I hurt him and i doubt he will ever forgive me, but I realize its time to forgive myself. I want to thank all of you for well everything&anything. Im still scared but im more optomistic that maybe i wont consider suicide everyday