losing my grip

Tired of everything!! 4 years ago my life was great had friends a home and finances were good but then parents lost their jobs. Lost my home, my friends and my self respect……. Ever since then I have moved a total of 6 times and each time the reason for moving again is because of the shortage of money. I was kicked out of school because we couldn’t afford it and missed out 2 years of education, now I back at school trying my best and I can cope with any of it, I’m failing at every corner!! One good thing happened to me……..one year ago I met the one for me the love of my life and she made life tolerable again and made me smile for the first time in years but it was too good to be true……..she left me and to add to the suffering she was abused by some fuck head!!! For a long time it didn’t matter cause I had family but my family was torn apart by everything……….parents divorced and there is constant stress and shouting about money issues. I don’t want to go on like this anymore if not for my parents I would have been dead a long time ago but I’ve reached the point where I no longer care. Considered so many methods of suicide….. Just want it over