i am 16 yrs old. my momÂ is 32 and my dad i dont know becaus e he walked out n my mom when sheÂ was pregnant. i live with my mom and step dad who are married and have been for 12 yrs. they have 5 kids together. my step dad raised me but i was never close to him. my father figure past away 2 yrs ago. i didnt know how to handle his death so i started cutting again. i started cutting when i was 8 and stopped when i was 14. my mom doesnt know that i cutÂ and no one in my family know either.Â i started cutting my legs at first becaus ethey were always covered up. then i moved onto my shoulders, then my stomache, then my feet, them my back. now i cut all over my body and it is getting hard to hide the scars. i have a scar in the shape of an “X” where my heart is because to me is symbolizes that i get no love from my family and no one is gonna get my love. every one thinks i am the great, smart kid who has a great family. when in fact that isnt me i am failing all my classes in school i am so far behind in all my classes, i dont have a great family because they all ignore. i jyst want to be DONE with everything now. i am so close to just giving up on everything. i have attempted suicide twice. i have had people tell me i am destined to live. i have so many people looking up to me where i live. but i just dont know any more. i dont want to look up to me for because i am so parinoid that they will foillow my foot steps and i dont want that. i just wanna GIVE UP!!
When i read this i felt like someone knew the real me. I am a 14 year old boy. My grades upset my parents. they don’t like me and frankly i don’t like them either. I spend most of my time in my room. and i also cut so i can relate.
i am always in my rom i barely ever come out. my friends walk out of my life cause i suffer from depression and they say they dont want people like that in their life. so i have pretty much no one to talk to. thats why i came on here.