There are so many people here that feel exactly like me, almost as if I had written their posts.  Where the fuck are all of you???  I am surrounded by these proletarians that sacrifice their dignity in exchange for a piece of the pie.  How disgusting is that?  I almost don’t believe that these posts aren’t just a figment of my twisted imagination, it doesn’t seem possible that such people like me can exist!  I have to live alone and forego social invites because I cannot suppress the fury that boils within me when I spend a split second with all of the social slaves that exist around me, I sometimes have to go and vomit in the bathroom because the infrastructure of the society we live in is so demanding and selfish.  Thank you for reading my vent post, the question-title was rhetorical, I’m not trying to find out where you are actually are at, I’m not some fuckin stalker.
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ha ha ha…I thought the same damn thing when I found this site. It was like most of this shit came from my head, so yeah, I know the feeling… and just so you know, I’m in TX.
…eventhough you weren’t asking…and no I don’t have any horses.
East Coast even though you aren’t asking 🙂 But I feel that way too…..where are these people in my daily life?
What is sad is they might be in our daily life but hide it well like some of us do. Too scared to say anything, but thinking the same way.
Heh, that seems to be a common question that pops into our heads… Look at ALL these people that I can relate to…where the heck are all of them?! Ha
Even though you didn’t ask I’m in CA.
@zacurious: You don’t have horses!? I’m sorry you’re not a Texan to me anymore lol, I kid.
Thanks for your replies, I truly hope you are real and that one day I meet people like you. I think that will be the only thing that keeps me going. I’m from Washington, I’m surrounded by ignorant hippies and junkies that misinterpret Ayne Rand and her philosophy of Objectivism. They use that as an excuse to use and abuse others. I’m originally from a ranch in Texas, you can imagine how insane I feel! Whatever happened to good people? It seems that I am missing something, as if I’m supposed to know something that no one will dare say out loud. I can see it in the eyes of one of the scared little rats that I deal with on a daily basis. This glimmer as if they know something I don’t. What is it!?!? Hopefully in a year I’ll be back home in Texas where at the very least I can enjoy some sun again. Fuck this forsaken state and everyone in it that doesn’t have common sense/decency/courtesy.
Good point. I feel the same way about trying to get out and take part in this lie of a society. Only through the means of technology have I come across two or three people who seem to still have their brains in tact and I can talk to them on a regular basis, but of course I’m not lucky enough for any of them to be local. It’s funny to actually think about that, if two or three of these people who I text message or email on a regular basis actually lived close to me, I would have friends, the type who would like to hang out many times a week and partake in the same activities that I enjoy. But on average they are all 3-6 hours away, all in different directions. Sadly there probably are people near by who feel the same and who I could get along with, but meeting people is all about random luck.
@elpayasotriste-where in TX?
@will-funny! believe me that is always the first thing I am asked…lol
I have tried to meet people but the majority of people are so scared that they might get hurt so they hurt others as a defense mechanism. I’m too stubborn to let something like pain control me, I have too much pride and I’m OCD like a ************. You can imagine how nuts I feel when I look at life and say, “Something just isn’t right!” I’m glad you all are out there, I guess maybe there is hope, even if through a computer screen.
@zacurious I’m going to move back to Austin, originally grew up in McAllen when it was nothing but cornfields. Now it’s a cesspool.
I’m near Houston, and shit the whole world is becoming a cesspool…now there’s a way to end it, go near the border and you’re liable to be shot.
I lived in Mexico for a year, it was the best year of my life. Once you get past the border and into the country, find some nice little villa. Life is simple and, in one word, beautiful.
Even though you were not asking, I am from England. Its not much different over here apart from the weather sucks! I am not really fond of people, if i do tell my story which doesnt happen often people feel sorry for me or find my thoughts are perhaps irrational. I tend to avoid people. I am lucky enough to know two bi polar people who share similar thoughts and ideas.
I must say alothugh i am new here, i love it, people think like me, rant like me and are not for lack of better word shocked by peoples honesty and bluntness!
People round me would have a heart attack if i told them what really goes on in my head, lock me away. Maybe next time i need a massive rant i will turn here for support and maybe offer some guidance in return.
@ crimson regret – Yes, please rant, it makes me feel better to rant as well as to read the rants of others that feel like me. It saves me having to type the exact same thoughts! I have to pretend to be someone I’m not whenever I walk outside of my house but lately my deadbeat brother in law is having to stay with me and I can’t even find peace in my own house. It’s terrible that people feel like this all over the world but we never run into each other! I feel as if we all wear masks when we are outside because society demands that you have no personality and you conform to what’s around you.
I am a poet and often express myself in writing, i did write a post called “November” which is in the years after i was raped. I find i do not fit into societies “normality” and i often feel like an outcast, like nobody understands me. Like you said pretending to be someone else outside, around people like a fake personality.. I often feel like i am dumbing myself down around people.. Erk!
How long is your brother staying with you? Only temporary i hope? So you can get some peace!
I’m in new Zealand nice to see another rant;-)
England. I changed my email because I was worried about girls stalking me but then I got desperate and changed it back.
@molly greetings from the USA
@crimson – I don’t know, he’s not very smart and he is really good at playing on my soft side. I can’t bring myself to be an ass and charge him rent or kick him out. I know that is the logical thing to do, for him to pull his own weight, but why do I have to be the bad guy in all this?
Dumbing yourself down, haha. I can’t begin to describe how horrible it makes me feel to be forced to stoop to the level of some people. In real life, if you stand your ground, you are treated like shit. Serpico lied, I learned that the hard way. Morals and values are looked down upon.
Idiocracy, anyone?
Oh, you have a soft spot he likes to push on, knowing you are too nice!
I totally agree with you though, i feel like a zombie walking around feeling my IQ drain away while trying to fit into what society deems as normal to lead a quiet life while “out and about”
I find society is like a pack of vultures, looking for its prey, the ones they find different, the ones the think are weak.. They pick them off one by one, until they are nothing and have the inability to fight back. Sometimes it is easier to temporarily fit in and be overlooked.
Does my post make any sense? I hope so!
We just need to discover a town and name it awesomeville and keep all the “proletarians” out!!!
In TEXAS!
P.S. I don’t have any horses and don’t even own a cowgirl hat 🙂
I’m surprised someone hasn’t already thought of naming a town Awesomeville. Surely the name alone would boost the local economy and morale. I’m from loserville.
Well come and live in awesomeville! (My little brother always says that the town was named after him, even though I’m pretty sure there is no such thing) don’t worry I was originally from loserville too 🙂
I agree, we should create awesomeville, fuck yea! That has been my goal for the last few years, actually. I planned on a remote area in some third world country free from the bullshit politics and government. So long as we have enough guns, no one can touch us!
I’m from Texas too, and I don’t have a cowboy hat or horses either! However, twas not always so.
@crimson regret – your post makes a lot of sense!
Ha I wish I had a horse, they are such sweet animals, but I think I can live without the hat. Unless it came in a really pretty purple 🙂
P.S. Justin Beiber stole the color from me!
Incidentally these are all real places
Dirty Gutter (near Leek, Staffordshire)
Pity Me (north of Durham)
Dull (near Pitlochry)
Hell, Michigan 🙂
so awesomeville isn’t too out of the picture. There’s hope!
TN.
One of the most backwards states in the union.
Along with neighbors in MS and AR.
Down here if you are not married with kids and in church daily, you get looked at as a freak. And even if there are those with things in common with me, they do not admit it.
My father used to work in Texas, I actually have some cowgirl boots and a cow girl hat.. Mind you i also have a sombrero and poncho from mexico and an indiana jones hat from australia.. I used to go horse riding when i was younger, though my horse was really naughty and never did as he was told!
I would love to visit California. Though its a long plane journey and quite costly, one day though.
Wow, when I first found this site, I was having some kind of nervous breakdown. I googled “I hate the world” and I found this site. I’m really glad, it has helped to know I’m not alone, though I’m not glad that others feel like me, such horrible and misunderstood emotions. Really wish I knew of some place in Washington where people like me can socialize without fear of being looked at weird. I’m tired of all the damn posers.
You looked up “I hate the world” I was looking up “screw the world” and found this site 🙂 lol
And awesomeville is soooo not out of the picture 🙂
you say tomato, i say tomahtoh, no big deal 😛
Ive heard a lot of things but not that one 🙂 must be an original 🙂
No, I cannot claim originality on that one, I’m sure I heard it in a song at some point 😛
I do that a lot. I will say something really cool or funny and everyones like ‘oh that was a good one. Did you make that up’ then I have to say no I’m not that cool I got from so and so :-))
Yeah, you found me out, I’m lame. lol. 🙂
Haha aren’t we all though? Plus lame is kinda a cool word 😀
haha, yea, everyone’s lame! Wait, does that mean everyone is cool? I’m confused…:P
Haha 🙂 on the outside they seem cool but really they are weird 🙂
I cant believe your : P didn’t turn into the yellow smiley face. Mine always do.
!! I hadn’t even noticed that! Preposterous! 😛 there.
Ha you really hadn’t noticed that? It started getting on my nerves cause I couldn’t have any of the different ones I know because they would all turn yellow 🙂 🙂 🙂 <all different faces
that’s so odd. Might be some glitch, perhaps?
Weird glitches. If you line a bunch of yellow smiley faces they look like a crazy smiling army :/ lol