this post refrences back to my previous post *the whole truth* .. my boyfriend just broke up with me and doesnt believe me when i say that i feel bad about this whole situation i told him how i feel and everything and i told him i cant go on liet his and he doesnt believe that ill do anything to myself; ive been more depressed than ever for a week and now the only reason i really got up in the morning is gone … i havent been able to eat for the pass week and every night and evening i cry and ive barely slept and i throw up every night but im not making myself do these things; all this pain im getting … why go on ? i guess this is would be a selfish suicide … but then again why should i suffer to make everyone else happy ?
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It’s entirely up to you. I don’t think suffering to make everyone else happy is required. On the other hand, if you live you will probably have some more joys in your life, even love.
And, yes, bad things too.
So the choice is yours. Good luck to you.
Hearing advice from a stranger probably won’t help you but I had almost the same problem. When me and my ex-boyfriend stopped talking I felt like giving up too, and I almost did. I had the same logic as you too though, that me suffering was good enough of a reason to kill myself but it’s really not. You’re going to feel the pain of losing him and all I can say is to distract yourself with things you love, and once you start feeling happier you’ll meet someone who will actually make you happy.
Every decision we make is “selfishâ€. Do what is best for you.
its not just the losing my boyfriend thing … its all the things thats happened to me and its all piling up and ive hit the boiling point … being raped, my mom, my family and friends dying, these standards im being pushed to reach, my mom is ashamed of me … its too much …
Why go on? It isn’t reasonable, it is life..it makes little sense in my opinion…it is to be lived or not, it is a feeling not a thought, not a reason, ….
This is our only shot at living so not to stick with it seems to make even less sense.
like brok3n says ‘all I can say is to distract yourself with things you love, and once you start feeling happier you’ll meet someone who will actually make you happy.’
-Strive to care for yourself, what do you feel good doing? Take a nice bath or something even if you think you won’t like it. Listen to music….something.
-Strive to care for others and be cared for (more than one other close person cause I don’t know that anyone can be everything for anyone).
-Strive for finding activities you loose track of time while doing something you are good at for work and something you may not be good at just for fun….
enjoy those feelings more than any one instance of them….easier said than done.
While often I want to opt out so far three things are how I go on more than why:
1. sometimes I am enjoying myself too damned much or at least am not in terrible pain
2. often I am in terrible pain and just to tired and/or scared I’ll screw it up.
3. often too I figure we all get one go at living and my stupid will to live is just so strong that I end up curious, hopeful or some other whatever that gets me to crawl through another day because this is it. I can die anytime and will ultimately so this is my one chance to see what the hell this life thing is gonna be about down the road.