For the past few months, I’ve been lonely and depressed. I’ve wanted to kill myself. And I know this might sound stupid, but when my mom said I could go to a Justin Bieber concert with my friends, I found a reason to live.
Yeah, who wants to live for a Justin Bieber concert? Some might think he’s stupid or gay, but for me, when I hear something that’s going to come out soon from him, it just seems like a sign to continue living.
I’m not sure how long my happiness will last, I’ll still stay depressed most likely, but now I’ve made two goals. These goals will help me get out of my depression, even for just a few minutes, and find the will to stay alive.
These two goals are:
To stay alive until after his Believe album comes out on June 19. If and when I stay alive until then, then I’ll try to accomplish my other goal.
Which is to go to his concert on November 5.
To some of you, this might sound meaningless. Some may think I’m faking my depression. But some may relate. Some may remember or feel the way I feel. The feeling you get when something you know and love is going to happen and you want to be alive to be able to witness it. It gives us a sign that maybe someday, we will get better and someday, we’ll want to stay alive to just be alive, not for events.