I couldn’t

This is encouragement, not criticism. So you made a choice to promise yourself in the hope you would stop….that’s a good intention & positive so pat yourself on the back….sincerely. That means something.

So you did the best thing you could amidst that promise to help yourself feel better…that’s a positive too. I don’t think you broke any promises…you’re always doing the best you know how…the only thing is you believe you have to gang up on yourself about it.

I’m not half of what I was, but I don’t judge myself or my experience…I let it be. Do your best to make a choice to feel good inside….& commit to that choice…when you commit to that choice, you practice it…saying to yourself ‘Nothing is more important than, that I feel good’ ….so you work yourself up the emotional scale to til you find yourself feeling more positive inside about yourself…you can’t get it wrong…you may go from despair, to anger, to rage, to hope, to feeling a bit better…as long as your intention is to feel better you will on some level. Hope this helps. You’re doing your best. Cheers!