This is what my soul looks like.
All alone, heart broken, and cries only blood because real tears stop flowing years ago.
I got this tattoo today because tattoos are my version of cutting myself. All my tattoos have blood in them because i have a phobia of blood, and they are all dark, because well i only see this world as dark. This is the smallest one i have, but i think i like this one the most because it reflects the real me, the lonely me i hide from the rest world. I showed someone this, and when she asked what it was suppose to mean, i told her it meant loneliness and heart break, just the basic story of my life, and she laughed and said i sound like a girl. Typical. I show someone some sign of emotion and i look like a ***** -_-. The biggest reason why i keep shit inside, and why my heart feels like shit, and because no one else in the world gives a shit. All i have in my life is me, and my loneliness.
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I don’t think you’re a ***** at all. I wish more men were feeling like you. The longer I live I feel like people are becoming colder and meaner and it makes me sad and lonely that you can’t reach out. Sometimes this website is the only thing keeping me from killing myself.
@wordless within: I know what you mean, i cant express to anyone what i really feel, and how i really see this world, a lonely and barren place. If i tell anyone, then im just “to emotional” and need to “man up”, fuck you world, i have issues -_-, its not a crime to be sad inside. Its hard to keep it all bottled up, so i just have to waste my money getting all inked up, this way i have something to look at to remind me i still feel something somewhere.
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btw thank you for your comment, it really means alot that some people understand how im feeling, even just a little.
I’m sorry to say this but I’m a mousey girl and I’m afraid of people with lots of tatoo’s I always think they are angry, it never occurred to me that they could be really sad.
Sometimes anger and sadness go hand in hand though.
I’m so sad I don’t even have to cut my skin just splits open on its own. The doctors tell me its exzema but I know in Chinese medicine that the lungs manifest through skin and the lung element is water and the water represents sadness and I find when I just want to die wounds open on my hands and arms and tears come down my face so I know it has to be true.
I know my name is worldless but I talk a lot because I’m lonely and you guys are my only friends.
Well I have to go to sleep now but thank you for talking to me see ya. I hope you have good dreams when you sleep fare well.
Well there is a stupid stigma of people that get alot of tattoos that we are all just angry and mean and weird. But in reality most people that get alot of tattoos get them for many different reasons, some because of insecurity, a way of belonging to something, to make themselves look beautiful in their own eyes, and some just because they are addicted to the rush of the feeling when the neddle hits the skin. Some people have cutting when they are depressed, tattoo enthusiast have tattoos to lift their spirits, there is no reason to be afraid of them, its just something we do it make us feel better, its the only thing that has been saving me for the past couple months. And as for your exzema, im really sorry about that =/, both my sister and neice of it, so i know how painful it can be. And also sorry i wasnt here to talk to you after i left, i wasnt ignoring you or nuttin, i just pasted out after my last message.
It’s ok that happens to me a lot. I don’t take offense I’m just probably in a different time zone than you. Thanks for listening it means a lot.