I’m soo depressed, sick & tired of being sick & tired!! Why does life have to be so damn hard? Why can’t I ever be happy? Why do the people you care for hurt you the most? I just want to end it all!! The HELL with life!! What I wake up, get dressed, go to work, kiss my fiancé goodbye & head out. But what do you do when the person you swore was your soulmate betrays your trust & violats your boundaries? I’m in love with a woman whom I grew up with, even as kids we were always together. Now 16yrs later we get engaged & vowed to each other to never leave each other or cheat or lie! 10 months in I find out that she got a brand new car from her so called “friend”. She says she’s not cheating but I don’t know anyone who would just but a car for you if you don’t sleep with them. I’m sure most who read this are like,”I’m stupid or whatever” I love her & I’ve been cheated on before. So you ask me whats the problem. It’s simple I’m tired!! I can’t go on knowing shes fucking another man right this second! The worst of it is I’m with our children & their asking me where their mother is? I don’t know what to say! I can’t take it anymore. I’ll just wait til they go to sleep, so that I can finally Rest In Peace. Thank you for listening
GOODBYE & GOD BLESS
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Please dont. Its your choice and i am no one to try to stop you, but before you do it…think about your children. Think about their lives and how they will be affected without a daddy to look up to. Just think for a little while longer.
Their not my kids tho. They do love me but still. I’m isolated in my room alone in the dark. Just thinking if I should or not, I mean what’s there to lose
There’s a lot to lose. The rest of your life. And even if they’re not your kids, they still look up to you as a dad right? And if they don’t, won’t they soon enough if you get married to this woman? And what if you have it all wrong and she did only get it from a friend? You would’ve killed yourself for nothing. So before doing something you can’t take back, figure out everything that’s driving you crazy. Everything that’s bothering you. Maybe that’ll help..
I don’t know, I mean I trust her with my life & she says she’s not & that she still loves me & is still in love with me but if she truly does then why do it in the first place & on top of that why isn’t she answering her cell
PLEASE I NEED HELP I CAN’T TAKE IT
I get it … I’ve been there … a few times. But I promise you it’s not the end of the world … you’ve spent most of your life with this one person … and since she has kids that are not yours, clearly she has been elsewhere (or at least I assume and I apologize if I’m wrong) … but it’s not worth ending your life over … this I promise.
Let her enjoy her “new car” and go off on your own adventure … all dreams end eventually but that’s not the end to all dreams. focus on yourself for as long as it takes, go to school, get a new job, move somewhere you’ve always wanted to go … have fun, be free … and when the time is right and you want find a new love … that you can trust.
adventure dawg
That’s the funny thing tho. I did move to a new place & thought I found someone I can truly trust & love & got the feelings back 10 fold. So where do I go from there??
I would love to go out & escape but I lost my job & I just paid rent. I just don’t know, I’m just sooo tired of all the BS
GOD PLEASE HELP ME!! Take the pain away or take me with you PLEASE I BEG OF YOU
Listen to Dawg…he/she knows exactly what they are talking about! GO take a vacation….go have fun & be free! prove to yourself that life is worth living!! (:
Ive been through the exact same problems. YOu just have to wait it out, and see how it goes. If you cant take it anymore then move again….try one more time! Im married, have three children and im as happy as can be now! Yes life was rough at first but thats just all part of the rollercoaster that we call life.
Im not gunna go all christian on you but god will help you, just give him time and remeber to prayy!! Theres always some light behind the thunderstorm!
I just want the pain to stop. I do wanna live but the pain in my heart is deep & sharp
That’s the worst part because she was my best friend ever the only female friend I’ve ever had. Sorry life isn’t it?
Pain is a way of ahowing that your fighting for somehting…without the pain you would have an easy life and not enjoy it as much when it gets better.
Well – the first thing you need to do is figure out for sure (or as close to sure as you can reasonably be) as to whether she is being truthful or if she is doing something wrong. if I interpret your original post right – you were apart for 16 yrs since childhood before getting back together … a lot of relationships can be built oer that amount of time … you don’t want to blow things up when you have nothing concrete to go on … but you DO need to try and figure out the truth – WITHOUT her thinking you suspect something … being suspicious of someone who is innocent is almost as bad as accusing her of cheating outright.
calm down, collect facts and in the meantime take her at her word … but VERIFY her story when possible … this will give you time to get yourself prepared in case the worst turns out to be true.
private eye dawg
PS – I’m a male for those who asked
She swore she’s not cheating on me (on her dead daughter) & that he’s only a friend. But still why isn’t she answering her cell?
The HELL with it all!!! I don’t care either way w/o her I’m dead inside
Maybe it died…maybe she dropped it and it broke? Dont stress untill you make sure you know alll the facts!!
Seriously? you’re hinging everything on a cell phone?!? because we all know how completely reliable THOSE are! (Major sarcasm)
Look, We’re not there in your shoes … but as you’e presented things you are WAAAAAY overreacting .
calm down … get FACTS … and in case you DON’T know … cell phone NEVER work when you need then to for any one of a MILLION reasons
zen dawg
Thank you all. I feel much better but still fragile
It’s sooo hard to say goodbye to yesterday!! & I take with me the memories to be my sunshine under the rain!!!