My life has fallen to pieces. The details aren’t important. It’s all the same stuff that you read on this forum. That’s not even the reason I’m upset. My emotions are out of control. I can be fine one day, then spend the next day crying into my pillow. I’ve had it. I cut myself. I beat my face in with a mallet. I can’t stop fantasising about jumping off the roof of my house. And yes, I do have a suicide plan. I feel that God has abandoned me, and I don’t know where to turn. The only ray of hope right now is an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. I want her to give me the drugs that make me stop feeling. I hope she does. I want to become a drug zombie. I just want the pain to stop.
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God abandoned you???
Puuuuuuleeeeze. If you believe in God (which I do). Then you KNOW He has not abandoned you.
Hey, I KNOW the struggle. I know it all too well. But please do not lay this on God. He said that he will never give us more than we can handle. Your struggle (and mine) is a COMPLIMENT from God. He is saying – I know you can handle this.
It isn’t supposed to be easy. This is NOT heaven.
Please, hang in there. TALK to me if you want. PEACE to you.
There’s a saying that “God’s favorites have/has a hard time”. so I guess good things are in store for people on this site (u) who are suffering.