Someone help me I don’t know what to do. I’m bullied at school. I’ve been cutting for over a year now. My boyfriend is 2 years older then me and my parents don’t like him. When I was 4 I was raped. My friends try to help but a fake smile and ‘I’m fine’ works just fine to get them away. I’ve tried suicide twice now and failed both times. I’m going to a counselor. But that just makes everything worse. I need someone to talk to who understands
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I completely understand your point of view especially the “fake smile” part. No need to explain in depth, because I know exactly what you’re feeling- I’ve been through with it too. You’re not alone, there are plenty of people who feel the same way as you- one of them is me! I just feel sorry for you that you’re experiencing all this at such a young age. I have a lot of respect for you because you’re handling it so well! Let’s talk sometime.
Sweetheart,
You are a strong little girl, you NEED to stop cutting yourself. Don’t let them win. And by them I mean all the people putting you down. It’s your life start living it the WAY you want. Talk to me if you need anything.
But it’s so hard to stop and I don’t wanna leave my siblings but I feel like I’m a burden on every1 and I hate it and the bullying isn’t everything my parents always expect so much responsibility and perfection and I can’t do everything like they want me to
And to nobody915 thanks ik others are out there and I’m thankful they’re there but it’s hard cause there isn’t anyone here
Nobody: everybody says that. I dont say that i dont even bother with a smile.
Anyways im in a fowl and neutral mood at the same time. Kinda odd i know but i was depressed sincce i was 13 possibly a bit before my parent’s divorce actually.
the fake smile works for me too.. you can email me anytime at turdieandgurdie@yahoo.com id be more than willing to talk..
Everyone feels that way sometimes honey, you’re so young and have such a long life ahead of you.
Hi, I know how u feel. I’m only 12 year old and I’m going through rough times right know. So, if u want to talk u can email me at jasiel_bvb@yahoo.com I would really like to talk to you. I cut too and with the fake smile all the time. So I think we might get along pretty well, if u want to talk. I’m a girl by the way ^_^
I am a lot older than you and I don’t have all the answers but this may help:
First tell your councilor that you don’t think it is working – they may explain to you why they are going through some stuff with you OR they may offer another councilor who you connect with better. If this one is not doing it for you – find another. Also never, never lie to them – even when it is really painful – and try to do what they ask even if it is hard because there may be a really good reason even if you cannot see what it is.
Also being raped is a dreadful, dreadful thing and it leaves you damaged for a while. I don’t know your circumstance but it may be that you need a lot more time before you really want a relationship. It is hard to explain, but think on this from my own past – I was abused really young too – I was hurt badly too and I could not control what happened and I was small and really frightened.
then as I grew up I had more control and I looked for pain in other places (pain which I could control) like self harm and other things. Give yourself time to get over what you have been through and to grow up and really find some safety in the world before you jump out to have a relationship.
I wish you all the good in the world – as young as you are you need to find help and stick with it. You have suffered enough, now you have to find a way to live in safety.
Tongue Sometimes it’s to hard to tell my councilor because it’s hard for me to trust her and my boyfriend is a great guy it’s just I never see him cause of my parents.
Jasiel_bvb- I’d love to talk sometime
my skype id is softsoul9 I’ve coached young gals like yourself before. You just need the right information to realign your thinking. While you’re in fight or flight mode you can’t help yourself effectively. That’s just how it is, and it doesn’t feel so hot. Take care.