ive lost everything. My money, my friends, my family, my job. People keep telling me “oh you’re only 16 you’ve got your whole life ahead of you” but I know that’s total bs. Of those 16 years, I’ve been depressed for 6 and I’ve wanted to die for 4. I don’t want to see what life brings in 30 years. Because I already know what it’s gonna be like. Me miserable, alone, broke, probably homeless living off booze weed and ramen I cook using trash fires and a pot I stole from walmart. Trying to find a way to die but unable to actually do it. I don’t want to see tomorrow. I didn’t even want to see today. I was just starting to crawl to the sunlight. But I slipped. And you know what? It’s harder to dig a deeper hole than it is to fall all the way down from the top. I’m staying in the dark now. I like it here. I know what tomorrow will bring. I’m not going to be surprised by my emotions. I’m making my home in the darkness and I don’t plan on moving. Ever.
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listen ! i was in the darkness too, the LIGHT IS THE REAL LIFE, u r only 16!! you havent experienced the finer things in life which youd enjoy, driving a car, being Succesful with money, having a wife and kids, U HAVENT LOST EVERYTHING! you have alot and can rebuild , life is more than what you see, ppl keep sayin u got ur whole life ahead of you becuz ur soo young, im 23 and ive changed dramactically since 16 in 7 years and see the light, i no u can too , enjoy what u love to do , the darkness is not ur home!
It must be really difficult losing everything… But what yu dont know is ur future. Yu will get such a beautiful life ahead… Keep a positive attitude – nothing can happen worser than this!! So just hang in, n stay strong and im here to support yu… Just brush these thoughts n do something that yu like… Its never too late to start… Yu have so much time to build up what yu have lost!!