Few days ago….

just a few days ago i came very close to killing myself… ive been in some very dark places lately, my boyfriend broke up with me over text message and ive been very broken down and in a lot of pain lately…its very hard fro me and with my depression and suicide problems i had enough going on so one night i just lost it. my best frienf taylor was at my house to talk me out of it. ive had so much going on i just didnt see the point in living anymore…al i wanted to do was die, go to sleep and never wake up, and stop breathing… i wanted to take an easy painless way out. i popped atleast 6 pills and went to sleep, but then when i woke up i realized nothing worked….so i grabbed a razor knife and started to slash my arms screaming and crying saying “i just wanna die what the fuck i just wanna die”. my life is very complicated and sometimes i just dont see the reason for breathing….some times i wish i could just let go and die a very fast painless death. ive already been thru hell!