freedom

Its kind of ironic when I think about it… How the only thing that keeps me from making the leap is the thought of those Id leave behind and their pain.  Yet where are they when Im feeling this low? They arent even here to support me yet I only think of them and how they feel.  I dont know. Maybe they just dont understand because they dont have these feelings and thoughts and lows.  I only want to be free from this pain and confusion and to find someone who understands the way I feel.  I feel so alone and isolated.  Being understood is all I want. I suppose Ill keep holding on, maybe tomorrow will be a better day.