I’m haunted by a picture of the love of my life sitting side by side with her new boyfriend on the beach that I saw on facebook.
Actually the picture is on his facebook, I can’t even see hers because she blocked me. It’s just a picture of feet. Side by side.
I only know they’re her feet because that’s how well I know her, even a year after we last spoke.
I wish her feet were next to mine again…Instead I’m haunted by a picture, just one more reason to not want to be alive anymore.
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I know I sound like a person you may want to slap for saying this but the best way to heal from an old love is to find a new one. I’m sorry I’m just in such a good mood. I feel like coming here is a mistake one of you is going to give me a virtual slap for being happy I just know it. But it is true. There was a great saying I heard once and it is really true. Girls aren’t worth crying over because the girl that is will never make you cry.
Haha! Well no I won’t slap you, but I currently have been with another girlfriend for a while. The problem is my ex didn’t break my heart, I broke hers because I was being stupid at the time and wasn’t thinking clearly because of depression, weed, etc. I totally get what you’re saying, there are plenty of girls out there to date, its just that I wanted to marry this one, and she wanted to marry me until I fucked her over and left her alone. Isn’t hindsight great?
You reap what you sew I guess.
Depression sucks doesn’t it.
Yeah it makes you do things you don’t want to do, and that you know will make you even less happy
Well, for a few long years I knew but things have been perking up for me lately. I can’t explain it I just feel like I don’t wanna die anymore. I wanna fight for my life and my love and everything like life suddenly has endless possibility and I like myself WTF. Nobody likes themselves I mean truely likes themselves but I looked in front of the mirror today and for the first time I thought DAMN I LOOK GOOD. I’ve never thought that my entire life and I was actually proud of being fat. I know what your thinking, “I want what your smoking,” but seriously no tricks. Weird huh?
That’s actually really cool, I’m glad for you. I definitely had a time like that after the first time I was depressed, like I had so much hope even though things were still rough. Then I started having problems with anger, which of course I didn’t realize at the time. I remember things that I got angry about too, and they were so stupid! Not worth losing love, just to win a couple arguments!
I FUCKING HATE FACEBOOK, that shit just makes me sad each fucking time I go on there. I see people doing fun shit and that just reminds me that I’m fucking lonley!!!!!!!!
Seriously, facebook can fuck itself
And everybody on Facebook (sorry if your on Facebook) can go fuck them selves!!!! I don’t give a shit who you ate with, now I just know what restaurant your at!
Yeah, I’ve been like trying to talk to this guy on face book who is really depressed like me but he’s not answering I hope he’s not dead. But he never gave me his phone number and there is no one else on his face book so I can’t even contact anyone to find out if he is still alive.
Haha, whew, I just logged off facebook, so I’m in the clear. The picture of my ex being happy with her bf is firmly engraved in my mind, until I get drunk again in my room by myself and need to remind myself why I hate my life so much….(currently out of booze)
lol so true.
Hang in there I’ll pray some of this happy shit comes your way
Thanks. The funny thing is I bet you all the people at my work think I’m one of the most happy go lucky people they’ve ever met. I’ve gotten good at lying
Me too, that’s what everyone says about me. For the last five years I’ve pulled it off. But now I don’t have to because I’m actually fucking happy. This is the shit. Still lonely though that’s why I still come here. But, I know after responding someone will suck the happiness out again and then I can be like the rest of you chaps suicidal again.
well don’t go and let that happen! i totally understand the whole ‘happiness is a mindset’ thing, but i don’t want to be blindly happy without her, because I tried that and hated it. Also I don’t remember the last time that someone used the word chaps in a sentence, excuse my american-ness haha
Yeah but you still shouldn’t make yourself happy if you are not. You need your soul mate that’s the only thing that will make you happy right now.
Yeah facebook can become very shitty when you are feeling down, most of the people I know on facebook, only post stuff about funny and good things. that makes it look like everyone is so happy and ahving such a great time and your own life is so shitty.
I nearly deleted my facebook account, but I know that I need facebook to stay in contact with some of my colleagues –> can’t delete my Account, I need it for work 🙁
I am sorry to hear this from you soulmeetsbody, I know how hard it can get when you are suffering from a lost love. It can become hell on earth, especially when you are lonely.
Ah… I’ve screwed myself over by looking for things I didn’t really want to see on Facebook before. Looking up an ex is never a good idea. I did exactly the same thing to myself. It hurt enough getting dumped and knowing that my ex didn’t want me. But thanks to me being silly, now I know who she is with, I know her Facebook says that they’re engaged even though I used to have to beg her just to have a relationship status with me at all, I’ve seen them commenting back and forth to each other, I’ve seen the new pictures of how great she looks. This was all a while back and I haven’t looked again since. But I’m still kicking myself for it. I would much rather just not know about all that stuff I saw. It wouldn’t hurt so bad just to go back knowing that we broke up and wishing I still had her. Being able to picture who she is with and knowing she is happy is ten times worse. I hate myself for looking. I don’t have a Facebook at all now and I don’t think I ever want one again.
I am experiencing something pretty similar right now (only I never did anything bad to push the love of my life away and we’re still close friends–yet I somehow still had to discover this with facebook and was not informed in person for some odd reason). With me it just happened days ago I was already seriously contemplating suicide recently before it happened. Just the thing I needed 🙁