Wow. I’m soooooo excited about leaving and going to Florida! 😀 Can’t wait. gonna be sooooo happy…. Nope… Just found out it’s posible., more probable that I may not get to go after all….. Well… oh well…. not a big deal…. Just Florida…. It’s just my mom…. Just… I SWEAR IF I CAN’T GO, I WILL FUCKING KILL MYSELF!! FUCK THIS PLACE!!! HEARTLESS PEOPLE!!! Damnit!!! It has destroyed me inside to hold on this long for her, for Florida. NO! If I can’t go, then I probably won’t see her until at least Christmas, maybe not even until next summer. No! If I have to stay, I’m done! Just…. DONE! Fuck this hell..
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Dawn – I am still here. Bit down, got drugged up and tried to hang myself last night, but it was so hard. I am fighting for my life, I want to try and help you too.
How come you are possibly not able to go to Florida? Is there anything that can be done that can help to change that? Let me know if you need some advice, I could try and see what I can suggest when I know more.
I know that “done” feeling. It is with me very often. I am so very tired of this life now, and the only thing keeping me here is the pain. It is so weird, I want the pain to go, but because I hurt myself so damn much, with drink, drugs, cutting, throwing away things in life and my now anorexia, the pain is what I deserve and I am here to suffer. I have no idea what will happen when I decide I do not want to suffer anymore
I hope that you can keep yourself safe. Fight
My grandparents wanted my mom to pay for me to go and they knew she has no money.. So they were possibly gonna keep me here but hue gave in and bought the tickets last night. And wow… I’m really glad you’re still here though I don’t want you to suffer. But you have tried the same method so many times. If you want to go, why not try something a little more sure to work? And thank you for being here for me. I feel like no one else is.. :/ I’m sorry about last night and wish there was anything I could do for you.. But you really help me and hope you can find some sort of peace or at least something that brings relief even if it’s only for a moment.
He* not hue :/
Hi Dawn
I am happy your tickets have been sorted.
I have tried to OD 5 times and that I have given up on, now I have my noose and I will hang, but it is so hard. I need to get drugged up first because it is really hard to end it. I want to just fall asleep and never wake again.
Hanging will work, and when I get the balls up to do it I will, I know I want to die, I do not want this anymore.
I think I am still here so I can hurt myself, suffer as bad as I possibly can before I end it.
Very tired now, crappy day. I hate this existence.
Hope that you are getting through the day
Look after yourself