Where do i even begin? I am 18 years old and i lost the people who pretty much raised me at a young age and developed depression before i had hit the third grade. Then i found out i had cancer, ive been fighting that for almost a year now and ive gone through so many surgeries and dont know what to say about it. But the weight of the sickness and the looming thought of dying and just having peace finally is so enticing i long for it. But then seven months ago i met the most amazing person i k.ow the person thats given me strength but it is also my downfall. I fell in love with her. And more and more ive fallen into the bullshit trap where i am only her bestfriend. Im ready to die my body keeps reminding me that. And now seeing the person i love getting drunk and making out with others guys then coming back to me for support. Its too much my mind is made up and now its time for my body to catch up.
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No ur mind is not made up, she is YOUR SUPPORT, your life is completley different, tell her how you feel, never GIVE UP ! u will be a cancer survivor and god will reward u with so much that you cant see at the moment, there can also be many other supports from females, STAY STRONG trust me
Life is not a dress rehearsal…definitely express your true feelings cause you’re quashing part of you…the part that wants to express that. If she doesn’t feel the same…it’s okay…be honest with your self about how you feel.
Dam, this is tough. I agree with softsoul. You should probably be honest with her, I’d be surprised if she didn’t already know. You need support too and you need love. You can’t be her everything and she gives you nothing in return. It must be awful to watch her make out with some guy and then she comes back to you to complain. If you get the courage to tell her then definitely go for it, if she’s not interested there are plenty of other women out there that will be. Good luck. I hope everything works out for you and that you beat the crap out of that cancer.