I feel numb when it comes to talking about my problems. I’m not perfect, i’m fat, tall and ugly. I’ve been verbally abused since middle school by my fellow “classmates” and my older sister. My parents are seperated, so when theres problems, I’m the one that has to stay strong and it’s hard when you get blamed for the seperation. (What could I, the child, possibly have done.) Nothing. So far the only thig that helps me get through these suicidial thoughts is the ton of ibuprofen i take everyday and my constant reminder to stay strong for my mother who has been on suicidal watch for about 3 years now. There was one point in my life that I crawled to the floor and I tried forcing myself to drink Clorox Bleach, i saw it on the news, that a couple committed suicide by poisioning their insides. I dont know what saved me but i’m kind of thankful i’m here.
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That would have been such a painful death. Glad you didn’t do it.
You have a good soul to continue helping others. I would die for my mum but if it’s anyone else i couldn’t give a fuck.
I personally couldn’t careless about outer beauty. If you’re corrupt inside what difference does it make? If you’re worried about being “ugly” though… just think. Why? What makes me”Ugly”? Is it because I’m overweight? If so, how do I lose this? You should take a step forward to enjoy life and try to change things. Good luck, have a lovely summer.
your words were helpful. thank you.