on not calling the national suicide number

hi all.

someone (me) took my username, so I used my username as my password. anywho.

some idiot told me to call the suicide hotline about a month ago, and I’ve called it before, and from many different states in the USA. this was about a month or year ago. I really do forget.

I tried to kill myself for about 5 years maybe ten. I stopped trying to kill myself about 4 years or maybe 3 years ago now. Now I bounce in between states, jail and doctors offices. it’s great don’t get me wrong, if I had a gun I would shoot hella stuff, but I want to settle down in my 2 bedroom house that I’ve had for about 10 years now. (the house doesn’t travel with me)  I mostly bum, and I’m getting too old for hostels. also, my house doesn’t fit in the jail oddly. I found this site. I found this site, because the judge tells me to get ORed, not the cops in the jail. So, I go from jail to court to jail to another state normally, because the police take me to court where the judge says that I’m getting ORed. (I don’t get it either & it makes me hate cops) The crazy PDs are always like…. uhhh… that should have killed you. My last DUI (don’t ask how many) I blew a 0.3 (it was early for me {maybe I normally take HUGE amounts of morphine} shh, don’t tell anyone I blew a .3 it was badass {this stupid fuk1n chink couldn’t drive)) oh and it was raining like today. I like sears point the most. 1/4 midgets or go carts for me, but the judge made it really clear. I am so high on oxygen (laughing – not an Elk) right now that I can barley type. so I’m going to go spend my SSDI on a box of wine that last 1 day and a morning.

good luck all & cheers

-bingo32x