Is it possible?
To be able to feel better simply by writing down feelings and thoughts?
Is that what I needed to do all this time?
After writing my first post I felt like shit, bringing all those memories back up again after spending so long trying to forget. But now. Now- I feel better. Lighter maybe, more resilient. Perhaps, dare I say it..  A little closer to how I used to feel.
Lets hope this thing sticks with me when I feel I need to bring up darker memories.
Fingers crossed.
And.. damnit. Reading over what I’ve just written is making me question wether what I felt way back when was true or not. Fuck it.
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It can be possible to feel short bursts of relief, feeling heard and that someone can care or relate to you can make you feel not so hopeless. What you felt then was true, you can’t be on the brink of depression and then question how you felt. Truth is you’ll probably have a struggle with yourself for a long time and still battle with these thoughts now and again but if posting on here makes you feel better keep at it.
I will keep at it for as long as it helps, for sure. The thing for me is that i have felt so fucked up for so long im no longer certain i can remember me being happy or content or settled. Something i need to work on i think.
I get what you mean, each little bit of happiness I come across fucking frightens me because i know how low into the depths of shit i can easily fall back into. Suppose it’s something a lot of people on here need to get used to.
Know something? Im just watching the human centipede, life for me is looking pretty good right now. Absolutely revolting.
Haha i’ve seen that atleast things aren’t that bad.