I don’t know why I was given this life. Seriously I rather be dead than alive. I can’t stand the concept of a “god” because according to “him” he gave me this miserable life I never asked for. Now that I am alive, I have to live it because I’m too much of a wimp to try suicide… I’m too afraid of the pain. I hate my race as well, I can’t stand living in this culture with these uneducated idoits. It gets me angry just to see my race. I won’t say what race it is so I won’t anger people. I don’t like my mom and dad because they brought me into this world. I never asked for this sh*% life. People say I must respect my mother bcause she brought me into this world. Yet she gave me this horrible life. My dad just hates me because I’m a failure compared to my half brother. He’s better looking, smarter and has a girlfriend. I try my hardest in life and I only have a 92 average in high school with a SAT score of 1420. I’m so angry with myself I can’t stand it. I wish there was a painless way too suicide so I wouldn’t have to live this sh*% life. I hate it so much no one can understand how I freaking feel. I feel so much better posting this however… I needed to let this out. :/ Is there ANY way to commit suicide painlessly? Seriously I can’t stand this life… ._.’
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No. There really isnt OTHER than maybe carbon monoxide poisoning.
but none (realistically). And sure as hell not if you wanna make it look ‘accidental’
… -.-‘
great..
sorry. i know what you mean. but i am not gonna lie.
The internet shows a bunch of ways. MANY of which are wrong and do not work.
It’s fine thanks. ;p
AloneXP
Me and my sister both have degrees. My brother always felt inadequate because he was not as academically gifted but he will certainly be far more successful than either of us. So, it’s not the end of the world if you don’t get good grades as long as you feel you tried your best. People are good at different things.
I understand why you say you hate your own race. I thought it was just too much of a coincidence that each and every time I was attacked it was by the same group of people, snide and untrustworthy. But you can’t condemn an entire group of people just because of a few bad apples. It’s only your own experience that makes you feel that way, in another situation things might have worked out differently.
You have to be more chilled out and stop caring about other people. Focus on yourself and set realistic targets.
@Admiral of The Fleet
I won’t say anything bad or do anything bad to my race. I will just think of them badly. I can’t help it. I know there are good people within my race but that is an extremely small minority of my race. If I ever do see this minority I will welcome them with open arms with friendship, but I’m bad at making friends as well due to my SA disorder -_-‘
That’s ok, you have just had bad experiences.
Sometimes finding it difficult to make friends is not necessarily a bad thing. It means that other people will have to make more of an effort to get to know you. The ones that do will probably be the best.
http://www.tc.umn.edu/~parkx032/VDD-Q&A.html
WOW I had the same EXACT SAT score. I could have done anything they say. Listen I like to think that nobody here cares what race you are, what religeon, hair color, or what kind of car you drive. I believe that this site is for PEOPLE! We all have at least a semi-functioning brain and for the most part I believe that people like us are actually more HIGH functioning than so called normal people. We feel different and act and react different. From what I read here, we all suffer from caring to much, feeling to much and giving so much that there is nothing left. I have learned a lot from a few people here and I have only been viewing for less than a week and have a post of my own. There is some good advice here however It seems that maybe a couple of viewers look to be 1st or 2nd year Psych students using us as homework.